WTF is wrong with me.

I have been waiting to have a dream with my mom in it.
Last night it happened.

That night I had laid my clothes out to wear for the next day and went to bed.
In my dream I had done the same thing, but my mom had come in and put them in the washer.  I was YELLING at her because she had gone into my room and taken the clothes I had laid out for myself.

For years I just wanted to dream about her! I just wanted to see her again and hear her voice…and the whole fucking time in my dream I am the one talking and yelling and I was so mad at her for trying to do something nice for me.  What the fuck is wrong with me?

Today I am a mess. All I can think about is how I want to hold her hand and listen to her talk and tell her everything.  I miss her so much.