• Random and Odd

    “10 months older… I won’t give in…now that I’m clean I’m never gonna risk it.”

      Last night was Shea’s dance show.  I’m going to take a moment to share with you what my amazing person did on just another average day.   He went to the show.  That right there is is 100% more participation than what any of my other ex’s have done.   There’s more.  He went out while I was at work and got Shea flowers & cupcakes.  He then came home and cleaned my apartment and did laundry because he knew I wouldn’t have time after work and before the performance to do it.  That right there is someone who loves me.  When you will do things like that for…

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    and then one thing led to another and WTF, how did I get here?

    The day before yesterday was a fluke day that I wish would repeat. I came home from work, made myself dinner and then sat down to watch my Netflix, Destinations show to see where Scott and Justin ended up this week…(Iceland if you care to know) and the sound of the TV lulled me to sleep at 7:30pm.  I woke up at 11:30 and checked my messages (holy crap, you don’t check your phone in a few hours and the texts just start coming in!) and fell back asleep until 5am…where I then got up and cleaned my apartment before work.  It was fucking awesome!  Yes, I totally felt old…

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        What a weekend we had!  Getty Owl is always the best damn run in Sacramento and having my running team there is always awesome.  I walked it this year with Victoria and we talked the whole time. I caught up on what she was doing and where she’s thinking about going. The more she talked about it, the more I wanted to join her.  Wyoming sounds like heaven!  I know as soon as Shea graduates from high school I’m outta here.  California is just too much and I can’t afford it anymore. I am still waiting on my tax return and then I am going to sit down…

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    Too Late…

      This whole week has been one of those “Catch Up” weeks where I think I am going to catch up and I don’t.  On Friday at 3pm I looked at my boss after going through all the invoices and bank statements and I said, “Did I even do anything on Tuesday? I mean…if you look at all the stuff I just did, you would think I was dickin’ around on Tuesday and just let the whole place run itself.!”  He then looked at me and said, “This place was insane on Tuesday. Don’t be so hard on yourself.” What other place can I work that I can tell my…

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    “People like you always want back the love they gave away”

    Yesterday I was in a really icky mood. I know that everything happens for a reason.  I texted my BFF and said, “Need Prayer…” in the morning and I know her well enough that she was praying for me because I would get random texts from friends during the day.  I was talking to one friend and he was having a hard time hearing what I was saying because he was seeing what I was going through on the other side of the coin.   I then got a text from another friend asking for advice on something I went through when I was in my 20’s. It made no…

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    let me remind you, this is what you wanted….

      I’ve been trying to get back into writing and expressing. I bought three different books to spark questions to get me writing again and it’s been more of a pain in the ass than helpful.   I’m keeping up with them, but when it asks the hard questions I find myself fearful of actually writing it down. I’m going to take this meditation yoga class tonight with my new friend.  She’s one of those people that actually make me think about the way I talk to myself and the things that I say.  The other day she very dryly said, “You make excuses for people.”  It stopped me in…