• Random and Odd

    Looking back and moving forward…

    I had an awesome weekend with my whole family in Redding.  My little ones wanted to spend the week with their grandparents and auntie during their break.  Spoiled just doesn’t cover it. They have been back this week, but since they missed karate last week they have to make up for it all week this week. I’ve gotten home from work and they are already gone. It feels like a life time since I have been able to yell, beat or smother them with love! My niece is getting married this summer, I know…I know…she’s SO young, and she wanted to get some shots taken in the town her dad…

  • Random and Odd

    It’s just stupid

    How much I love the TV show Chuck! Okay, and now to things that don’t involve the best show on TV. I am hoping that in the next two days I will find out the best news I have had in YEARS!  Two days might be too hopeful. I am hopeful…so freaking hopeful right now. When you hear the high pitched squeal coming from California…It’s just me…excited and happy as hell! You won’t hear sobbing though…because if I found out anything last year, I am stronger than I thought I could ever be, stronger than anyone ever gave me credit for…well, except my sister and mom. They’ve known all along!…

  • Random and Odd

    Hopeful.

    I had a rough last year and this year tried to wear some of 2009’s clothes, but despite that…I have hope. For almost a year I have despised the word “Hope”. Because not only did I allow someone to take it way, it made me question EVERY single thing and EVERY single person I met.  I admit,  there is nothing more surreal than feeling hopeless while surrounded by family and friends that would take a bullet for you. I have been having dreams again. In the last month I had one of the gut wrenching, sobbing dreams.  I have a fantastic friend who I share everything with…but at that early…

  • Random and Odd

    LOL!

    Last night was one of THOSE nights where you don’t say anything to piss me off or I am going to bite your head off. It’s been a rough week as it is and I didn’t need any bullshit. I IMed my friend and told her I was about ready to snap.   She calmed me down after 500 questions and realized I was just being bitchy. Finally, having enough I looked over and let it out, “WOULD YOU STOP GLARING AT ME!? GOD! You have been glaring at me all damn night!” His mouth dropped open.”I have an EYE INFECTION! I am not glaring, I am looking at you!…