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MY BEST FRIEND IS MOVING AND BAD KARMA
I’m struggling with the fact that my friend Jessica is moving. She has up and decided that she’s moving to *can’t name state because she’s moving because of a freak she dated and now he’s stalking her*. I can’t believe she’s actually leaving.
I have allergies.
I’m sneezing like a MF. I think this is Karma. I said once before in one of my journals that Karma is coming back and kicking my ass. I had no idea that all the bad karma in my life would come back at one certain time in my life. I thought the bad karma would spread itself out a bit. You know, maybe have bad parking karma a few times for that one time I cut someone off in a parking lot around Christmas, get a cold because I laughed at Dan for having allergies, get dumped for all the hearts I broke along the way. Oh hell no. I get the extreme bad Karma…and all RIGHT NOW. If you’re reading this and I have done you wrong at some point in your life…don’t worry, I’m paying for it in one way or another. Ironically I am getting exactly what I gave. I thought Karma had some sort of lesser degree when it came back. Nope.
I’m pissed.
I made this really cool journal blog. I deleted the wrong file and now it’s gone. I’m just never going to be happy with this page.*sigh*
My computer is fixed.
In the process of putting all the stuff back on the computer I ran into some pictures and old writing. I got all sad. I found pictures from 1999 when I started my new life and I read some things I wrote about those times and I was fairly optimistic even though I was going through a rough time. I was following my bliss. I thought for sure I was doing the right thing and to hell with anyone that thought differently. I hurt so many people along the way. *note the karma paragraph* I found a picture that made me take a real hard look at my life. Once again I sit here with a million things going through my head and I realize…I should have went to work today.