More…More…More…

I had my head doctor meeting today.  Now after listening to me, he has decided I need 6 weeks of Panic Disorder meetings, 2 meetings with the doctor that has a bunch of letters after his name and possibly shock therapy.

Going over my family history of anxiety, substance and alcohol abuse, and my childhood,  (By the way, everything revolves around your damn childhood) I think they are required by law to ask, “Have you ever thought you might be Co-Dependant?”
I said, “I’ve read the book. TWICE.”  He looked at me like I was crazier than he originally diagnosed.
“Wow. Then you know about as much about Co-Dependency as I do.”

This don’t instill comfort in me.

He listened though. He asked questions.  He then said, “You have a cute panic disorder.”

*blink blink*  OH DUH. My Bad.
“ACUTE? as in bad? or ‘a cute’ as in a fuzzy puppy?”

He then told me he doesn’t think I have any idea how bad my situation is.   I replied that I thought I did because I was willing to do whatever it took to fix it.

They upped the meds. They increased the amount of meetings. They installed shock devices on the doors whenever I tried to leave.

16 responses to “More…More…More…”

  1. Fran Avatar
    Fran

    Well I am so glad you have some answers. What are you gonna name your fuzzy puppy?

  2. Kami Avatar

    Good girl going to the doctor.

    ((((HUGS))))

    It will all be better.

  3. jana Avatar

    A-cute is better than An-xiety.

    Glad you are getting help.

  4. Katie Avatar

    I hate how everything goes back to childhood.

    Way to go on seeing the doctor. Good luck!

  5. southernfriedgirl Avatar

    Dude, if everything really does go back to childhood, we are all fucked.

  6. Melanie Marie Avatar

    Hang in there! You can do this!

  7. wendy Avatar

    Fellow sufferer here…it will get better. Just having it diagnosed made me fell better immediately.

  8. Cheeky Avatar

    I think my childhood is finally catching up with me – seriously – no joke. Been out running it for years but its catching up…..so do I want meds or faster shoes?

  9. Jamie Avatar

    Good for you! I hope they get it all worked out for you!

    I’ve been debating about doing something about my anxiety too. Maybe I should follow your example and go get it fixed.

    ((HUGS)) Feel better soon!

  10. randomandodd Avatar
    randomandodd

    I’m an example setter? Shit, we are all in trouble!

  11. Liza Avatar

    i very much somewhat understand. i’m just waiting for someone to instal electric devices into my brain that shock it whenever i think about doing something bad. i guess my new theme song would be “whole lotta shakin’ goin’ on”

  12. gypsygrrl Avatar

    glad to hear you have a plan of action… sending you love and hugs!

    (and it SO sucks that everything goes back to childhood)

  13. Arlene Avatar

    My meds got upped last week. Another one got added in, and therapy is now once a week, along with the once a week to the head doc. Apparently we’re all crazy :-(

  14. delaine Avatar

    I cannot imagine the courage it took for you to get some outside help. I admire that.

    Just following your drama and sending hugs!

  15. Kelly Avatar

    LMAO! I am totally going to refer to all of Jenelle’s “acute” problems as “cute” from now on! You crack me up!

    Hang in there sweetie – there is a light at the end of the tunnell, and it ain’t a train baby!

    ;)

  16. Michelle Avatar

    Sounds like someone is taking you seriously and making some good recommendations…being a fellow anxiety sufferer – knowing someone is listening and not “ya ya ya-ing” you to death helped me a lot to get moving with treatments. Hang in there – I am thinking of you.