Do you feel like you’ve been pushed out of my life a little lately?
I’m sorry. I have been pushing.
My mind is overflowing with a million things and then when I sit down and start writing I just either burst into tears or look at my words and say, “Who is this writing this? This isn’t me.”
So, for you…I will spill it. I went to the doctor for a follow up. I need to seek really professional help. I guess the professional help I started with wasn’t good enough and the specialist said I needed even someone more special to work with me. Nice huh?
The pills that I have been force feeding myself aren’t working. I had hopes that the world look a little bit less scary after I started taking the pills. Maybe I thought the world would seem ‘rosey’ after a month. I thought I would laugh more and stop clawing at the top of the car everytime Shaun puts on the brakes. I thought my mind would stop screaming, “OMG WE ARE ALL GOING TO DIE IN A HORRIFIC WRECK!”.
The only thing that seems to help out is the Xanax and that is now more just to fall asleep before 4 am and not sit up all night listening to my hair fall out and wondering which muscle will start to twitch next.
I had a little scare last week that didn’t help much. It turned out to not be as bad as we had thought and all is right in the world again, but it left me drained and it took about 2 days for my blood to actually flow through my body.
It’s okay now. Everything is fine.
Yes, a THOUSAND dollar cell phone bill. I just have to shake my head at my stupidity for laughing at those stupid commercials where people freak out when they go over their minutes.
Looking at the cell phone bill made me ask myself something, ‘At what point am I spending time with these children that they could spend almost a WHOLE FULL DAY on the cell phone and I don’t see the phone attached to her head?
She has lost her cell phone for a couple months until I can hooker my ass out on the street and pay this thing off. Who’s first?
SPF:
1. Something you have outgrown…
2. Something you have overcome..
3. I need help with…
Yeah, we are reaching in and digging around.
Okay, I know I totally left out stuff… you got questions for me? I will do my best to answer them.
52 responses to “Soul Catching…up.”
First bitches.
I thought you were kidding about the 1000.00 phone bill. I guess we won’t be having any more long phone conversations about my asshole ex husband?
Ohh the poor child…who was she talking to all that time? Was it the hair color that made her do it?
Seriously I hope that you get whatever it is that will help you with this next very special specialist. Aint’ life just grand with this stuff? Thoughts are with you!
Can I see your boobs?
RSG: No, I love talking to you about asshole.
Michelle: Nope, it was the OTHER teenager.
Charlotte: Turn on your yahoo and i’ll turn on my webcam.
So, are you going to seek professional help?
I worry about you, ya know?
Charlotte she is not going to show you her boobs. She might show you Shauns’ boobs but I know her. Tricky little wench.
Dashababy…(my sister) Yes, I am getting there. I will be prescribed a special specialist that specializes in my anxiety disorder in October.
I WILL TOO SHOW HER MY BOOBIES! (of course, they don’t have to uncovered do they?)
and on a side note:
I noticed that a lot of people are doing the 365 days of self thing. I would play, but the thought of taking my own picture 365 days in a row makes me want to hurl my lunch. Maybe if it were like only for 3 days.
If you’re playing that though, let me know…I wanna see. I like to watch!!
LOL. A specialized specialist….only you dear. I love you. oxoxoxox
I love you too, sissy. When I have more minutes, I will call you.
DID I MENTION SHE ALSO BLAZED THROUGH MY SIX THOUSAND ROLL OVER MINUTES?
I’m sorry Lately has been rough. I’ve sort of been there, too, although I don’t mean to transfer attention here. Just saying, if you need an ear, I’m here. : ) Also, I am indeed playing 365. It’s been interesting, and fun! You should think of playing, too. I think looking at your face for a whole year would be lovely. : )
Also, boobs!
She’d better get a job to pay for that phonebill!!!
Hope you’ll feel better after seeing that special specialist.
Wait…so THIS is the week that we show our boobs for SPF?
I’m so confused.
Did somebody say boobs?? Now that’s an SPF theme to look forward to! ;-)
WHO and the HELL is she talking to?
HOLY SHIT KRISTINE, I can not believe she blew through 6000 r/o minutes and still managed to get a $1000 cell phone bill. I guess someone will be getting a job. HOLY SHIT I AM SO GLAD I AM NOT HER. Oh my god I am having chest pains just thinking about that. HOLY SHIT, did I say that alredy!
A thousand dollars!!?? holy crap.
And hugs to you girlfriend :)
Huge hugs Kristine. Seriously.
This week’s SPF will take some work, but I should probably work at it after taking three weeks off, eh?
I thought the 1,000 dollar phone bill had something to do with your potentially-no-longer-gay friend. I was confused.
So, 6,000 rollover minutes = 100 hours talking. I have no idea how much cell phone minute minutes are so I can’t estimate how much time it took to rack up 1,000 dollars…
I use approximately 10 minutes per month on my cell phone. I have 800,000 extra minutes to use. Wish I could just give em to you!
The phone bill – Rina.
Dan pays for Kara’s phone bill
oh and no boobs this week for spf. dorks.
Ooooh, Marina. Beat that girl on Sunday.
I want to see your boobs, too. And Shaun’s.
I love you, you HAB.
Hey, I think I might need a specialized specialist, too. How does this work? They call me on their cell phone and I show them my boobs? I show them your boobs? I’m so confused…
no questions…just know that i am here for you…
peace…
Aww, thank you.
NO BOOBIE SPF people. Ya’all just want to see the ta-ta’s huh?
Ok, here’s my question… does the person SHE talked to has a $1000 phone bill as well [as I had to learn that in the US you pay for outgoing AND incoming calls]… that would make these phone calls worth $2000. OUCH! I would seriously make her get a job and pay for at least part of it.
On another note, I might have missed the post when you were explaining what you take the pills for… but I am still amazed how you manage your marriage, kids and household. My aunt [who only has one child] has been on pills to and can hardly take care of her own life, let alone his son’s… I adore you!
i’m glad things are starting to look better for you and i hope the specialized specialist will be able to help!
1.000$ phonebill = no phone until she’s eighteen and has a job!
also, i am playing 365 but haven’t gotten around to since sunday. i was doing good the first almost thirty days though.
oh AND i DID take a picture of my boobs for you last SPF and you didn’t even stop by *powts* no, i’m just kidding [well, the booby-pic i actually did take] about you not stopping by. i know you had a lot of stuff going on…
feel better! *hugs*
I really hope, that the new specialist will be able to help you feel better soon.
Maybe I am getting confused here (which I shouldnt, as I am part of a patchwork family too), but Dan is paying for Marinas phonebill? Marina is Shaun’S daughter, isnt she? Good for you though. :D
I’m having an anxiety attack on your behalf: 6,000 RO and $1,000 bill.
Yes, we would like to see your rack and Shaun’s ;-)
Maybe you could do a week of Kristine instead of 365 days.
I just want to clarify, there is nothing wrong with touching boobies nor taking pictures of boobies and putting them on the internet.
that $1000 phone bill is still blowing my mind… if that was me, my mom would ground me for a year or until it was paid off, make me get a part time job to pay it off, and then make me keep said job to pay for my own prepaid cell. wow. $1000. she is lucky you love her.
LOL You think William is trying to tell us the girls should come out and play ;-)
I’m still wrapping my head around $1000 cell phone bill….I would have passed out!
WHO and the HELL is she talking to?
(btw: I go through the same thing with hubby drives).
okay these comments are just hilarious. Talking about boobies and $1K and they’re not related. Fabulous. I do wish you the best with your specialized specialist and maybe he can also find a way to surgically remove the cell from Kara’s ear.
Make her read Stephen King’s book “The Cell”. That’ll cure her cell phone addiction.
I know! You show us the boobs and we’ll send the $1000. Is that how it works? Because I would totally give up some cash for that! :)
Hope it all works out for you and you’re feeling better soon! ((jugs)) HAHAHA I am leaving that typo in!! I really meant ((hugs)) but ummm….well…maybe the first one is better….
There’s a research study out there somewhere which explains the teenage mind. The rest of us just muddle along waiting until they get done with life’s lessons.
I sent a Forward to you about priceless moments in life. There’s a boob picture which should have you snickering.
See, I used to buy phone cards (back before we even had cell phones in our house) and use those to call people – that way the folks didn’t know who I was talking to.
I am not sure how one would even get to a grand for a phone bill. Man, that sucks.
A couple of months?!?!? Damn she’s lucky. If she lived here it would be 6 months and THEN on to a pre-paid plan…that SHE pays for.
Sorry about the bill and good luck with your new doctors. I feel for you and think about you everytime I feel like I’m drowning. It isn’t often these days but it happens. Stay strong sista!
wow! $1000? I think my speaking priveleges would have been revoked! Marina must be talking on the phone in her sleep to rack up that many minutes.
My thoughts are with you on the meds and special specialty doctor people. I’ve been there and it’s a helluva road back… but it’s so good once you get there.
shoot, did I miss Shaun’s boobs? I never get to see anything good
it’s such a good thing that we don’t have children…I would have to channel my dad and do something crazy like make her eat a cell phone….or beat her with it until she’s senseless ;) J.O.B.!
been thinking about you Kristine, hope things settle down for y’all and you can get back on an even keel…
still coming back on the $1000 phone bill still shocked, I am just wondering what was Shaun’s Reaction?
For the record: Kara is me and dan’s 13 year old daughter. Dan pays for HER cell phone bill.
Marina is Shaun’s daughter and my step daughter…I pay for her cell phone bill.
As for Shaun’s reaction: he was shocked.
As for my reaction: OMG.
Marina’s reaction: “Who? Me?”
How did this conversation turn to boobs? Is this Jessica’s blog or Kristine’s?
Did you just say $1000 dollars? 6000 minutes?
Holy shit.
I’m sorry things are so hard. I don’t know what you are going through but I know what it is like to struggle just to breathe.
I want you to know that you have helped me in my struggles just by sharing and being real. I have a lot of people around me who seem (or pretend) to have their shit together. Which leaves me thinking ‘what’s wrong with me?’
Thanks for reminding me that I’m not the only one who struggles. I believe that things will get better for me and for you!
(sorry to get all heavy on you!)
((juggs)) that’s too funny Jenie!
Glad to hear you’re on the road to getting better. I would like to second what Melanie Marie said. You know I think you’re awesome!
On a boobs note….I’d join in on the picture of boobs sharing SPF joke, but I don’t think they make a zoom thingy powerful enough to get mine. :)
I had no idea it was really true that teenage girls could talk that much. I think I would throw my phone out if I ever had a bill that high. :P
Sorry things are still going rough for you. I had to have a specialist that specialized in my brand of crazy and it really makes a HUGE differencen in finding what you need to get back in the swing of things. :)
Two words – Virgin Mobile. No surprises there.
I wish I could give you my extra rollover minutes. They are just going to waste on me.
I hear you on the pills. I had the same struggle a few years back. I’m finally on something that works and I quit the job that was just adding to my issues. Good luck with the new specialist!
I have no words. Maybe you should sell her on the black market? Wow.
Dr H.O. Potamus used to say “Talk is Cheap.” I guess this is one of the rare things that he was wrong about.
BTW, How much for a piece of A**? Oops, that was Dr Potamus speaking…so sorry.
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