• Random and Odd

    Don’s birthday at the dropzone These are some of my skyfriends. Some new, some old. We have a thing going on Facebook called ‘Ed Threads’. A normal conversation back and forth turns into something out him. At Don’s party we got all his girls together for a picture.

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    my name on the title…my money in the gas tank…her Jeep.

    She is finally legal to drive. I couldn’t be more proud of her. She’s safe, except for that crazy pull out in front of the car thing and her dramatic hands when telling a story and forgetting to hold onto the wheel, but no…really…she’s a great driver. We went driving today to find a place to get some updated pictures of her. Only once did my ass pucker up in fear. For someone that has/had acute anxiety disorder, she did a pretty good job at making me feel safe. She’ll do great if she doesn’t take on her father’s ‘riding up on someone’s ass because they are driving too slow’…

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    choices…

    “Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” Rumi I have been asking for direction lately. Which direction do I take my life right now? Which do I listen to? Heart or head? My heart has made some poor choices in the past. My head may have had some role in it too. Whenever I listen to my heart, my head has a way of telling me that choice isn’t the right one and fights me day and night. When I let my head make choices, my heart aches. “Follow your bliss.” Is…

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    Like we didn’t see THAT one comin?

    All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another.  Sometimes we trade in a certain part of ourselves for another. A certain part of our lives for a new one. No one forced me to jump out of a plane. No one told me it would change my life either. Somewhere mixed in with the nightmares I have at night,  will be ones of where I am finding relative wind. Sometimes I am grabbin’ air, sometimes it comes naturally and I am doing backflips and tracking through…

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    Some people look at clouds. Some people look for holes.

    People come into our lives for a reason…at a certain time. I can usually figure out why they are there within a few weeks. I often question why certain people move in and out of our lives. You think they will be there forever because the bond is so deep. Some people you think you will meet and never talk to again. Recently I have had new people come in.  How long they will be there is now a question that first comes to mind. I never was this cynical, but with the events in my life, when shaking hands I think, ‘Nice to meet you, how are you going…

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    Please no…

    Once in the plane as we were heading to elevation I was stuck next to a skydiver that insisted on singing.  As the first bunch of jumpers exited the plane, he turned and sang to me, “Noooowww, I’ve hadddd the timeeee of my lifffeeeee…” in full Dirty Dancing, Patrick Swayze style. “Dude…seriously… I do NOT want that to be the song stuck in my head when I am in free fall or under canopy! Let alone the LAST song I hear if I die!”  He laughed and exited the plane and I followed, soon forgetting every thought in my head. On the way home a car fishtailed to a stop…

  • GYOW

      It’s been awhile since I have actually sat down and wrote. The book I have been adding to is a complete mess as I began writing it before the walls of my life came crashing in.  I’m sure if I actually sat down and wrote everything out it would probably be a best seller. It has all the elements of a great book. Seeing that I have taken nearly every step to avoid even thinking about what happened, it seems stupid to write it down and relive it. There is a story in it though. It’s about ghosts. Ghosts that haunt you every single second of the day. This…

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    Ghosts and New Paint…

    The weather has been really warm lately, but yesterday it looked like it might rain. In my backyard I had a box of memory stuff that I had pulled out to see if I could find something the girls had made.  Me being me, forgot it out there and the sun damaged it and the bottom cracked.  In a new box I gathered up all the stuff and began sorting through it. I’ve known for awhile that I have several boxes in my garage that contained both memories from Shaun’s life before me and some of my own. There was a point in boxing it all up that I never…

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    that which does not kill us…will wish it had!

    There is something about a road trip that will make everything all better. Ru and I went drove to Redding/Shingletown to do some stuff that needed to be done.  On the way there we got Sonic slushies and sang at the top of our lungs as we passed through the quiet towns on the way back ‘home’. ‘home’ is a strange word. In the past few months I have been walking around my house with the ghosts of my past bumping into me around the corners.  You can take pictures down and paint walls, but they are still there.  We needed to face a few of those ghosts this weekend…