Still Trying….

It’s only Wednesday. I feel like I am rushing towards a date. Like if it were Thursday, everything would be okay. I will be okay on Thursday. I know that’s not true…and when I’m all better, I’ll be all better. I just hate that it’s Wednesday.

I guess I need to take a few minutes and point out the good things since I have been a big ass downer for too long.

1. I didn’t freak out this morning when I got up. I freaked out about an hour later in the morning, which is good. I can wake up and not go into instant freak-out mode.

2. My medicine is on it’s way!

3. I didn’t have horrible dreams last night.

4. I met this guy in my dreams last night. Oooooh baby! I feel guilty for even typing that, but God, it felt so good to feel alive, even if it was only in my dreams!!

5. I’m not stressed about Christmas. I’m stressed about everything else, but not about Christmas.

6. Oh, someone added me to their contacts on Flickr.com and I looked at all his pictures and he doesn’t seem to be a freak so I have my first contact! I even added a couple myself. Look at me go!!!

7. My dad and I are talking a lot more. I think it’s because I’m calling him ALL the time, but at least we are talking.

8. I found out I like the HP glossy paper better than the Kodak kind. I will no longer spend less money for less quality…ever.

9. I’m reaching here…Uh, *looking around* Tonight is Shea’s play and she knows ALL the words and is very excited.

10. All my Christmas cards have been sent out!

There, how was that for uplifting? I’m trying!!