Well, I bit the bullet and bought the D750. My bank account is cringing, but I did it. Now to upgrade all my lenses. Who said photography was cheap never owned a camera.
I have 2 sessions to finish editing and then I have photo shoots all the way up until Christmas. This time of year is busy. It wasn’t suppose to be busy because the “Closed” sign has been up on my photography business for the last year. Luckily for me, it’s been new friends, old friends and family that I have been able to capture this year. No strangers.
Things have made a significant shift in my life. The quiet is getting deafening, but my balance is finally coming back. I feel like Julia Roberts in Runaway Bride where she has to figure out what eggs she likes. I just reread that and had to laugh. The girls use to say that I remind them of Julia Roberts from each of her movies. Kara once told me that “My Best Friend’s Wedding” was the most like me because I don’t like all that ‘icky love stuff’. That was the point where I decided that I needed to be a little less closed and let people love me, show me love, be loved. It’s been many years, but I keep reminding myself it’s okay for people to show me love. It’s just…I don’t know how to receive it a lot of the time.
This time it’s the eggs.
I’ve never dated myself before so I am learning how to show myself love and find out the things that *I* like. Before I would watch whatever they were watching. Listen to the station they had on. Spend time doing or going where they thought would be fun.
Don’t get me wrong, I did this by choice. “Whatever you wanna do…eat…watch…listen to…it’s fine by me, I don’t care.” and truthfully, I don’t really care. It’s just now that those things are solely my decision and I have no one to run them by, I have to learn what I want to do, eat, watch and listen to.
I like to meditate, eat bacon, watch discovery shows and listen to a plethora of different music.
I like spending time with people and hearing their stories.
Last weekend I was in downtown and I called a friend to meet me for breakfast out of the blue. SHE SHOWED UP! I need to do shit like that more.
My other friend invited me go snowshoeing with her, which turned into a snow camping trip! This is my life now and I am okay with it…but changes always come and I need to be strong for those changes.