Alyx passed! She is a black belt now! I was surprised how hard it was for her. She was so nervous. It was a turning point in her life and you could see it. Proud doesn’t cover how I feel.
Turning points seem to be a common thread in our lives. I can see a turning point in all our lives.
Dan is getting healthy. Kara is getting ready to start her new life after school. Shea is changing and becoming quite a young lady. Me, I guess you can say I am finally seeing a change not only in my appearance, but in the way I feel about what is left of my life.
There are moments when I say, “Tomorrow isn’t promised and we should be living each day, not just getting through it.” knowing that this life of ours is so short in the big scheme of things. Then I saw something today at the giant flea market, a violin. For a moment I thought, “I can’t wait until I am older and I will take lessons.” I could see myself in my sixties, sitting in front of a teacher learning how to play that complicated beast.
It’s those moments that stop me in my tracks and make me look at the life I am living right now.
I’ve changed. In the last few months, something shifted in my head. All the things that were enough for me, just aren’t anymore.
Remember that movie when the lead says, “Love means not having to say you’re sorry.” That’s not true. Sometimes people need to hear that. They need to hear certain words to heal a part in their heart. Those words don’t always come and so they find a way to heal their heart without them.
“Love conquers all.” That’s not true. Sometimes love just isn’t enough. Because sometimes you can love someone with all your heart and be nearly certain that there is no you without them…and then you have a moment when you see there is no future because neither will ever bend. Staying would be settling.
It’s taken time…but I see that. I understand now and I don’t need to hear that sorry.
I wanted more, but I know that this is enough for me. For now.
4 responses to “Stuck in a moment….”
Maybe it is that 7year thing?
I hope I am do soon,I am ready for a channge lol.
Congratulations, Alyx!
let’s hope you never have to use your skills on a would-be mugger.
Your quote about love/sorry reminded me of when LOVE STORY was in theaters and I was in high school. For awhile, anytime some little mishap took place, a nonchalant “sorry” would cause a friend to go all pouty and say “you don’t have to say that since you love me”
which is a completely different memory subject than you are having, so now I’ve hijacked your Comments.
About the violin – that brought to mind the movie LADIES IN LAVENDER with a guy who plays that instrument. the actor really took violin lessons so he could look good for the role
Love conquers All is a song from the movie ONE ON ONE with Robby Benson. These days, he is a college professor, but I’m glad you gave me a reason to go check his website… oo-la-la :)
I am loving you commmenting MrsDof, because you remember EVERYTHING :)
I went on a hike today and WHOA boy was it a doozy! I was SO proud of myself. You have to check the flickr pictures.
OMG!!!!!!!!! Alyx I am soooooooooooooooooooo super proud of you!!!! And a little bit jealous. Boo is dying to take classes and will as soon as we are settled! Congrats to her! BIG moment and BIG deal. Kind of like us crossing the finish line together in a very wee bit mama! I can already feel the accomplishment in this task as well as Lassen! Who would have thunk it? A year ago this time??? never for a moment. So today I say CHEERS to you Kris! Thank you for inspiring to dig inside each of our lives and find that iner strength. You are the best and I adore you!