There had to be a ‘one year’ mark.
I remember thinking, “Dear God, I wish it was like a year from now so I could be through all these feelings and crap and be over this!”
Hello One Year!
I had the moment the other night, sitting here in the same place I was when he walked out…and I thought, “HOLY FUCK, who would have EVER guessed all the things I would have become and experienced that night last year!?”
I didn’t want to let anyone ever love me again. I did.
I never wanted to trust my heart to someone else again. I did.
Never wanted to trust another person as long as I live. I am.
Didn’t want to sleep, in fear of the dreams. I sleep.
Didn’t want to move forward because I thought I would crumble. I DID NOT CRUMBLE!
This has been the most wonderful year of my whole life. I owe that to the amazing people who have come into it. They say when you finally close a door, a window opens.
I think in this case, I closed the window … and a door opened. That door just happened to be the door of an airplane and into a world of strong women, honest men and the only way to really NEVER take this life for granted.
I owe it to my amazing children. I told Kara last night, “I am not only proud of you…I have PRIDE being your mother!” Sometimes my whole body and heart just swells with the amount of pride I have for them. Such amazing strength can be found in these three little girls. Growing up to be gentle, warm hearted, smart, STRONG, funny little women!
So this is the last time I will mark the ‘date’ and recognize it. There are better milestones with whole new dates in my future!
9 responses to “Something to be said about saying nothing at all…”
I am soooooo proud of you and your post gives me hope. I’m entering month 6 and I’m finally getting my feet back under me. You are an inspiration.
Go forth into the future! :)
You’re going to great Casey! Do not fear the day! Let someone else fear that day!!
i like your philosophy…there are much better milestones to celebrate.
you are such a fantastic role model for your girls…they are who they are because you are who you are.
Love you darlin………always have always will……and i really like that damn lester…….shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I think he’s pretty special.
Thanks Melissa!
That which doesn’t kill us makes us stronger
what’s for you won’t pass you
cliches perhaps – but cliches are cliches often becaue they’re true!
It’s ok to make mistakes in life – as long as you don’t make the same mistake over and over
Breeda
I am so happy for you! I could jump up and down!!!! WOO HOO! You are so much of an inspriration..you have no idea!
I am in that place where you were a year ago, I wish it was a year from now and I was over it..but I’m not and I don’t think I will be a year from now but I’m trying!
You are awesome and you know it. The greatest gift that God gave you out of this is was for you to see who you really are. Shaun only held you back. You were to worried about his family and issues that you couldn’t focus on the true you. Now that you have found her everyone knows. I LOVE IT when GOD WINS and the DEVIL LOOSES.
Smooches to you – Pam
I loved his family…but I have a wonderful family who loves me. ;)