“That’s what she said.”

I’ve thrown around the idea of taking down Random and Odd in January when my yearly update is due.

It’s been awhile since I’ve really had anything worthy of writing anyway. Honestly, it’s not that I haven’t had anything to say, but when I do write, I hit the backspace button because I know whatever I say, will hurt someone’s feelings.  My last post wasn’t directed towards anyone.  It was a post from a mother who’s children made her proud.  It doesn’t matter if the post was written for me, my children or the universe as a whole…there is always someone who believes that was written for them.
In counseling many years ago during a session, my therapist said, “He’s drinking AT you.”  My ex knew that drinking and his actions were getting a reaction out of me, it was working. So the next time he brought a case of beer in the house, I grabbed the whole box and chucked it out the front door.  I told him, If he want to drink, do it outside.
Now I realize, Yeah, he was drinking AT me…but maybe sometimes, he was just drinking to drink.
He never drank more than a six pack of beer before I ripped the rug out under our lives, so if drinking was how he wanted to deal with the end of the marriage, so be it.

My point. I’m not writing AT anyone, I’m just writing to write.

I’ve decided instead of taking away my outlet, that for now on, all my posts will be password protected.   Why do all of them have to be password protected?
Because it doesn’t matter if I am just sitting down to have a beer to have a beer or if I am having a beer to piss someone off…it’s always going to get twisted and that beer has now gotten bitter.

This is the strangest way to end Random and Odd…with bitter beer face…and I don’t even drink beer.