I’m just so tired of being sick that I am sick and tired of being sick. You get me. I know you do.
I want to write a post that does not revolve around a part of my body that is burning, itching or feeling like I am being used as some sort of funky voo-doo doll ritual. That would require me not feeling that way and well, not quite there. Everyone says, “Well you look better…getting around.” I’ve found out how my beautiful friend, Lisa does it. She fakes it. She’s so sick and tired of being sick and tired and talking about being sick and tired that it’s just better to fake feeling better. So I am taking a chapter from her novel and doing the same thing…just dealing with it and learning to live with it. Some people fake being sick…i’m faking being better. Maybe my body will forget and we can move on with the peeing problem.
Today my friend Ruka called and said, “What are you doing?” For most that’s just an opening line to a conversation. Ruka is more to the point…she really wants to know what you’re doing because soon you will be doing something totally different because that’s just how she is…some may say, ‘how she rolls’.
I hopped on her train and said, “Well, I was just about to jump in the shower, put on make-up, do my hair and get dressed because it sounds like I have plans.”
“Good, meet me at Chevy’s at 11:30.”
She gave me like 45 minutes to get done what now takes round about 2 hours to accomplish. Between the peeing and the pill taking, the hot then cold and might vomit…it takes longer to pull myself together. BUT I DID IT.
It was nice getting out of the house and doing something other than paying a bill or buying food.
I’ve been out twice this week with friends and it feels SO DAMN GOOD.
10 responses to “I wanna say i’m better, but i’m not…”
Go Kristine!
If you say “I’m terrific” often enough, it might turn into reality, right?
Glad you are feeling a little better. You will be all better soon.
Yay for friends who are sometimes the best medicine, even when we’re still feeling poorly.
okay kristine, i have a question for you…or maybe some help.
in one of my classes we do mock clinical grand rounds…if you present to me your problems..(lay it out there in a time line onset of problem, type of problem, duration, medication tried/failed, etc…) I will present it in a mock grand rounds. then the class (my nursing class) we start tossing ideas around of what it is and go from there. if you want me to do that you can email me…(kimmyk_85@yahoo.com) and i’ll be happy to do so. we just diagnosed one of my coworkers and it totally was right. (yeah us!) so it might help to have some eager wanna-be nurses scopin out the fine print.
but if not, please know that i hope you feel better soon. maybe having an upbeat positive i am healthy and i am thankful blah blah blah attitude will help.
if it works i shall tell myself everyday that i am rich.
i am rich.
i am rich.
yeah not buyin’ it yet, but i’ll keep tryin and maybe those freakin bills that are piling up on my kitchen counter wont seem so overwhelming.
I like Kimmys idea. Don’t forget to mention the stricture and that awful procedure that the dr. unceremoniously sprung on you whilst you lay vulnerable.
Yeah, tryin’ to make something like that funny, just not happenin’.
I love ya. Glad you got out.
Sometimes I think the getting up and getting out part is the hardest part of getting up and getting out – does that make ANY sense? I am glad you might be feeling a teeny bit better even. A good therapist once told me often times “fake it till you make it” works better than not – I guess as long as she wasn’t talking about the big “O” (she wasn’t) it might be true!
I wanted to know if you had been tested for lyme disease, your symptoms, your location, and your reaction to antibiotics alone would make it worth getting the test. You most likely would not recall a tick bite or a rash. The best thing to do is find a lyme literate doctor and have an igenex (they have a website) test done since it is the most accurate test. For more Lyme information check out http://www.ilads.org. I’m not sure if you read Susie Fairchild’s blog but she went without diagnosis for years and is not dignosed with lyme. I went through the same thing, bad reaction to antibiotics as well. Been a long time reader but it takes a lot for me to comment. Just wanted to mention this to you, might as well rule it out. Wishing you the best.
I heard that you’re doing Benjamin’s 3-year-old pictures today at the pumpkin patch. I can’t wait to see them! We missed you at his birthday party. Just keep on focusing on getting better!
Love and Miss Chevy’s – did you go to the one by the River?
By the way, I totally thought of you when I watched Grey’s Anatomy last night. Particularly with the man who had a headache at the pain level of an 8 for almost 8 years!
Hang in there – you’re in my prayers!
Golly, that picture is worth a thousand words screaming “Yeah, we’re married, and it is US lookin’ at you”
Hope you feel better soon and very soon.
~~love and Huggs, Diane