frankly…i can’t even talk.

In the blogging world we are faced with people in ‘real life’ run across our blogs and we are confronted with either keeping our blogs going or just shutting them down.

I’ve been blogging/writing/scribbling my thoughts in notepads since as long as I can remember. I always knew my sister was reading my diaries. I always knew my mom was reading my notes.  The two strong women in my life made it clear that nothing was getting past them.  I even tried to write in code and they always broke those codes and would confront me.  My mom’s theory was always, “I knew if I gave you enough rope, you’d hang yourself.”  and when I was dangling in front of her she was always give me the, ‘told you so’ eyebrow.

I’ve been confronted more times than I can count about my blog.  Each time I either stand my ground or tweek a little bit how I put my words out there.  About once a year I say, “ENOUGH!” and I decide that I am tired of tip toeing around certain words and certain subjects and I swear that I am going to RECLAIM MY BLOG.  That usually last for about 2 posts and then I am back to the blah.

I thought about opening another blog under a secret name so I could cuss, scream and pull out my hair and talk about all the things I don’t here.  There is a reason I don’t talk about things here.  I can’t.  I have to be the ‘bigger person’ ALL THE TIME.  I mean, it doesn’t take too much to be the bigger person. All I have to do is not open my mouth and just laugh when confronted with certain things.

But you know, sometimes I would really like to just go the hell off…not be the ‘bigger person’, just let it out so you can all see how REAL I am.