I’ve been thinking a lot about ‘titles’ I’ve given myself in my life. It’s nearly impossible to avoid a ‘title’.
You start your life out as the ‘Oldest Child’ or ‘Middle Child’ or ‘The Baby.” You are a ‘good boy’ or ‘bad girl.’ When you enter school your title is a ‘grade’. As you progress through school you get ‘nicknames’ and ‘titles’. As you age, your job becomes your ‘title’.

These ‘titles’ have shaped me. These ‘titles’ have tied me down. These ‘titles’ can be taken away in a split second…and then what am I left with?

If I put a title on myself that would shine me in a good light, it would be ‘Mom’. That’s the title I wear with the most pride. That’s the one I am the most proud of.
I have lots of titles that I am proud of. ‘Daughter’, ‘Sister’, ‘Friend’, ‘Fiancee’.

When Nikki died and I got the email from Kami, I had to email her back to make sure I was clear. I asked her again, ‘Nikki? Sarah’s partner?’ and yes, it was Nikki.

My title of Mom can be taken away in a second. I know no matter what happens, i’ll always be a ‘Mom’, but the active part of that title can be taken away. That became VERY clear after hearing about Nikki.
I’ve been emailing with a few of us that had been touched by her life and we are all in the same mindset…we are keeping our kids closer and counting our blessings a couple more times a day.
I woke up this morning to one thought; What if I wake up this morning and my worst fear is realized? What if one of my ‘titles’ is ripped away from me? What if my mother dies? My sister dies? my children dies?

I was reading a new friend’s blog today and she was talking about ‘titles’ she had growing up. I thought about the titles I had myself. ‘lazy’, ‘brat’, ‘skinny’ ‘stupid’…
It took years to find out that those titles weren’t really me. Okay, I was lazy, but I wasn’t stupid. I tried my hardest to redefine who I was, but I think the person I really am isn’t something I can change. It’s something I can mold though…and that’s what I did…no, it’s what i’m doing.

If you had to pick a new title to add to the ones that you had, what would you pick?
You can’t take ‘Lotto Winner’, because I already called dibs on that one.

You get to pick a new title today. You get to hold it up for everyone to see. No one gets to take that title away and it will come to fruition if you just write it…what do you write?