went online to see if i could find a video from 2005. thought it might be on my vimeo or my youtube. not there.  i even checked tyler’s youtube. nope.

maybe it was here.

i had to read through a few posts.

THANK YOU GOD i am not that person anymore. the anxiety parts of my life are manageable.  the toxin has been purged. i am so much happier.

it’s just so strange so many of those years, i saw it…i even wrote about it. why didn’t i save myself?

i will NEVER be that scared again. ever.