I..who. Um. *shaking head*
I’m trying to figure out how to write this and believe it as I type it.
Nikki is gone.
Many of you know who i’m talking about. Nikki was Sarah’s partner. Last year Sarah died of cancer. Nikki began emailing me because Sarah use to read my blog and she wanted me to know about her. She wanted to tell me about Deb. She wanted me to be aware of the people that read my blog and she wanted everyone to have the strength to get through situations that they didn’t think they would be able to get through.
She wanted more for other people than she wanted for herself.
I went through some emails she had written me. Passionate is the word I would use for Nikki. She felt everything when she wrote about it because when I read what she wrote me I feel the urgency for me to ‘get her’. Please just understand how important this is – is the message she was trying to give me. She wanted prayers, she wanted strength, she wanted awareness.
I’m at a loss for words today. I wrote this and set it aside to see if I could get it to sink in and I can’t. I just can’t. I just can’t wrap my mind around the fact that someone that was doing good with what they had left…isn’t here anymore.
Sarah and Nikki’s family website: http://www.swlf.blogspot.com/
18 responses to “i am without words”
I am speechless. The sadness is just so much. I am so sorry for all the pain these wonderful people have endured!
I will be thinking about them!
Oh my, you have opened Comments, after I made the rounds reading all your links.
I posted a poem over at Lawbrat’s.
We’ve lost a good one, that’s for sure.
~~love and Huggs, Diane
I am sorry for your loss. Did Nikki have cancer like her partner?
I keep telling myself how beautiful their heavenly reunion must have been. Maybe it’s denial…. but I like it better than the alternative.
I had decided to close the comments, but after getting a lot of emails from friends and a very special one from William, I chose to open the comments.
Nikki was killed in a car accident in Cambodia while there helping with Doctors without Borders.
MOTHEROFALLCHAOS: that helps. It really does.
I have sat around all day just looking out windows and shaking my head.
She was just so much good…
So sorry to hear about this. Hugs to you babe. Hugs to all of you.
She touched so many and wasn’t close to being finished.
I am so sorry :(
Last Monday I posted about my struggles with unexplained loss as I tried to comprehend a 4 y.o. girl’s who lost her battle with cancer. These are the times I can’t comprehend God.
Times like these are so hard to bear. I’m sorry for the loss of your friends. I’m sure it’s like losing the remaining part of Sarah.
Hugs,Kirsten
I am deeply saddened.
I did not know of these people, but from reading I can tell they had strong impacts in so many other’s lives.
This is a great description of Nikki. I didn’t know her well but was shocked and saddened to hear the news yesterday. I too am at a loss for your words but your words here are touching and sweet. The first thing I thought when I heard the news is that now her and Sarah are together. There is some comfort in that thought since they loved each other so very much.
I love you sis.
((hugs))
I am so new to blogging and managed to find her site purely as an offchute of another…How sad,… My heart felt sympathy goes out to the bcom and the family…
Oh my gosh. I was so confused until I read your comments. When you said “she was gone” I thought you were upset that she went to Cambodia which is what I read on the site you linked to? I am so so sorry for such a sad sad loss. I will send prayers for all the good she has done, for the person she was that you loved so much and for her peace wherever she may be.
Im very thankful I heard it through email first. Even then, I just sat there and sobbed. It still hasent sunk in. Its just not right. The poem Diane put in my comments puts into words the words I dont have.
I’m going to email you soon.
This is such a terrible and sad and tragic thing. I am so sad. Hugs to you.
How very sad. My thoughts are with the family and friends of Nikki and Sarah.
This is so tragically sad. I will never understand why these things happen.
My thoughts are with you, and those who’s lives Nikki touched.
No words, Kristine. Good job. Hugs.