i am without words

I..who. Um. *shaking head*

I’m trying to figure out how to write this and believe it as I type it.

Nikki is gone.

Many of you know who i’m talking about. Nikki was Sarah’s partner. Last year Sarah died of cancer. Nikki began emailing me because Sarah use to read my blog and she wanted me to know about her. She wanted to tell me about Deb. She wanted me to be aware of the people that read my blog and she wanted everyone to have the strength to get through situations that they didn’t think they would be able to get through.
She wanted more for other people than she wanted for herself.

I went through some emails she had written me. Passionate is the word I would use for Nikki. She felt everything when she wrote about it because when I read what she wrote me I feel the urgency for me to ‘get her’. Please just understand how important this is – is the message she was trying to give me. She wanted prayers, she wanted strength, she wanted awareness.

I’m at a loss for words today. I wrote this and set it aside to see if I could get it to sink in and I can’t. I just can’t. I just can’t wrap my mind around the fact that someone that was doing good with what they had left…isn’t here anymore.

Sarah and Nikki’s family website: http://www.swlf.blogspot.com/