“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing there is a field. I’ll meet you there. When the soul lies down in that grass the world is too full to talk about.” -Rumi

“When I am with you, we stay up all night. When you’re not here, I can’t go to sleep. Praise God for those two insomnias! And the difference between them.” -Rumi

We will have to repent in this generation not merely for the hateful words and actions of the bad people but for the appalling silence of the good people. — “Letter from Birmingham Jail,” April 16, 1963

Respect your haters. They are the ones who think you are better than them. -Unknown

You don’t understand, no-one does. When a woman makes the choice to marry, to have children; in one way her life begins but in another way it stops. You build a life of details. You become a mother, a wife and you stop and stay steady so that your children can move. And when they leave they take your life of details with them. And then you’re expected move again only you don’t remember what moves you because no-one has asked in so long. Not even yourself. You never in your life think that love like this can happen to you. -Francesca, Bridges of Madison County

“Motherfuckin’ tittysuckin’ two-balled bitch!” -Agent Zoil – Paul

Anxiety Attacks

7 December, 2004 /

http://www.ponderingpool.com/

I’m anxiety ridden. It’s everything. It’s just sitting here, right now. This anxiety on my chest. What can get rid of it? Making everything ‘all better’? How can I…the thought of it not being ‘all better’ is causing a full on attack!
I want to scream STOP IT and then all the sudden I will be able to breath again, but I can’t open my mouth. I can’t take a full breath. It’s cold too. I am cold all the time now. Yeah, the weather is changing and it’s cold outside, but I am freakishly cold.

I saw this card last Valentines Day when Shaun and I stayed downtown for the night. I wanted to buy about a million of them. I was pleased to find they were online and I could order them. Oddly enough I was having a panic attack in the store that night and I couldn’t stick around to view all the cards.

Breath, Kristine, Breath.

I looked online on relieving anxiety attacks and just reading about them made it worse.

I’m feeling quite hopeless.