I need to listen to my sister….

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I had a long talk with my sister the other night about a choice I had to make.
The things I have done in this life that are scary do not come to the magnitude of terrifying as the choice I made.
Dropping 100 feet under water, not a problem. Stepping out of a plane over and over, yeah, scary as fuck…but not terrifying.

“Go for it. Give it 100%” That was her advice. Now my sister is the smartest person I know and she has never pointed me in the wrong direction, but this is…it’s fucking scary! It’s stupid and it goes against EVERYTHING I have been preaching for years and years.

I watched an interview with the queen of daytime and she said, “Love shouldn’t hurt.” BIG RED TRUCK! It should be fun, familiar, comfortable and not scary.

Tabitha’s voice is running through my head too (which is not conducive to anyone being able to think clearly) “all or nothing, bitch…all or nothing!”

I’m going to try. No, I’m trying. NO, I doing. I’m doing this. HOLY SHIT, i’m all or nothing and I really have no damn choice do I? I need to just let go and just risk it…again!

Thanks, I needed to just write it out, I feel better now. Carry on.