Life gives you lemons?
I hate that saying, ‘when live gives you lemons, make lemonade’ I am not the type of person that can take shit and make it better.
UNTIL NOW.
My life is more awesome than it has EVER been, ever, ever EVER! The ‘at peace’ feeling I have, that I have been reaching for as long as I can remember is not only within grasp, but right here with me.
I can take a deep breath and exhale and not feel any lurking fear.
Every night when I lay down at night, no anxiety.
Last night was my first night in the house by myself (for awhile). My girls went off to karate and Kara had her date with her boyfriend and I wandered around the house, having those moments of, ‘this is MY life? really? this is MY life? WHAT DID I DO RIGHT?!”
I made an awesome dinner and then all mature like, I put the left overs in tupperware for lunch. I went upstairs and took a relaxing bath with a glass of wine from a bottle that my boyfriend bought me a few days ago.
So today, after a rough night of sleep…I had a lemon chicken tarragon sandwich I made myself.
Tonight I will go get some popcorn, ice cream and pizza for my sleep over with Jeremiah where we will watch movies and stay up all night listening to him sing to me and talk about 4 year old funny stuff that always makes me giggle!!