ten whole days

Today marks the ten whole days my little girl hasn’t had an accident at night.
A life without pull-ups? could I be asking to much?
I know, I know…I have two girls about ready to start their periods so it’s not like I have a life without absorbency issues.

It’s been a rough couple of weeks. I’m still working through it. I seem to have a better handle on it this go around.

Shaun made me laugh today as we were watching a commercial for Eharmony. The old guy was talking about how you get to know someone from the very start.
He said, “Dear God, who wants to get to know someone from the very beginning? Can you have a few emails where you think the other person is somewhat normal?”
I laughed and remembered back to when we met. Somehow we managed to avoid the “look over here so you don’t see how horrible THIS part of my life looks” phase.
He said; imagine if the online ads actually reflected the real us:
“Hey, i’m a guy with a sinus problem looking for a woman with anxiety attacks! Oh man, I can’t believe I found her!”
and then he pulled me in as close as he could with his sore neck and I cuddled up as close as I could without burning him with my heating pad.

I was inspired today. I was reading a blog and I was inspired.
I have been kicking around this idea for about a year and I never called to follow up on it.

Today I did.

I called the local senior citizen apartments and I left a message with the lady who runs shit there (i’m sure she has an official title)
“I want to give up some of my time helping out the people there that have computer questions. I want to teach them how to use the internet. If they have any questions I want them to call and if I can I will come over and help them out. I’m not charging anything, I just want to help.”
The woman was so excited because the older people there call her on a weekly basis and ask her questions she doesn’t know the answers to.
I got a call tonight and it was from an older woman who wants to know how to save pictures that she gets in emails.
I told her I could help her, but she said she has doctor appointments every day next week. I’m going to go over next week and help her out.

I’m getting out of the house. I’m talking to people. I’m going to get to teach people how to connect and I just know she’s going to teach me something I didn’t know either. I can’t afford therapy, but I have a feeling this is going to heal me in ways a doctor and medicine never could.