Miss. Understood

I posted this picture on my Flickr account and people thought I spent the weekend GETTING MARRIED.

I’m not really sure how to be more clear, so I am going to use the words of a dear friend; “Hell to the mother fuckin’ No.”
It has nothing to do with my ability to ever commit again. It has nothing to do with not ‘being open to happiness.’.  I am committed. I am very open to being happy.  Thankfully, I trust again too.  I just will NEVER in this life time get married again.

Do I believe in marriage?  Very much so. I know a lot of people that are very happily married. I love going to weddings and being a part of that moment when the pastor/preacher/father is praying over the rings and all that good stuff.  I love the look on the bride’s face when she’s sputtering through her vows, looking at her man with such love. The moment when the groom sees his bride coming down the isle in the dress he has heard about for months on end but never seen.  For those two people, it’s an amazingly beautiful thing and I have been more than blessed to have spent that day with many people.

I put in my time. I had that first marriage where I believed there was nothing in the world that would tear us apart and I would be his bride forever.
I even had that second marriage where I believed the vows, “forsaking all others”.

Being in love is the greatest thing in the world for me. When I am in love I am a different person with him than I am with anyone else. I don’t see anyone in my life but him.  Right now, I am very, very, very happy and very much in love.  I don’t want a ring or a ceremony. This feeling I have right now is more than I could have ever have asked for. It’s better than anything else anyone could offer me.  His high pitched voice when he gets worked up about something makes me smile. His obnoxious eye rolling makes me giggle.  His inability to sit down for more than 5 minutes is amusing.  When I am sitting next to him and he reaches over to hold my hand makes my heart skip a beat.  The way I make him laugh out of the blue makes all the really stupid stuff we put each other through, seem small and insignificant.

I believe in marriage, but I think the commitment we make to each other every day is more important.

So no, I didn’t get married…but two really awesome people did and I couldn’t be more proud to have been a part of it.