Uncomforable Honesty…

** Updated — It took several hours to get the nerve up to do it, but here it is. No make up. No fancy clothes, no talented photoshopping.   Me. Right now. ***

I want a change. I have wanted to change for as many times as I have opened up a magazine and something as innocent as a woman looking normal in a pair of jeans jumped out at me.
I want to be comfortable. I don’t need to be thin, hot, smokin’ MILF. I just want to be comfortable.

So, I am going somewhere I have never gone before. Posting pictures of my transformation, which I have limitted to no more than 120 days. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life trying to get where I need to be.
After talking to my doctor, getting my ‘frame’ size, my health history and a battery of upcoming blood tests. My ideal weight would be 153 pounds. I would love to say, “I want to weight that for my birthday…let’s stop eating!” I’m smart enough to know that rapid weight loss isn’t healthy. If I set my time line at 120, that means I am going to lose 7 lbs a months (that sounds SOOO slow) in a healthy way.

People have suggested wanted to join me on my mission and OF COURSE, you’re welcome to. You don’t have to be as painfully as honest and open about it as I do. No one is asking you to do what I am going to do. I know, in my Flickr stream, you only see pictures of me that don’t make me look like I was raped by the Michelin Tire Man. This is going to change.
I’m sure the “You’re Smokin’ Hot” comments will be replaced with, “HOLY CRAP! HOW DID YOU HIDE ALL THAT??”
PLEASE, PLEASE…talk to a doctor, find your HEALTHY target weight, DO THIS RIGHT…don’t be stupid like I have been in the past with trying to lose weight.

This HERE is where I will keep a daily photo log of the 120 day transformation. I’m starting today (*gulp*) Today’s photo not uploaded yet.  It’s Uploaded now. Follow my transformation over there.
I’m sure I will post SOME of the transformations I am going through, but for the most part it will be centered on my Flickr site under the pictures.

*scary face* I’m nervous. It’s one thing telling you my weight, but SHOWING you? wow.
I know I’m not alone though, and that makes me feel better.

Oh, and I can joke about my weight, you can joke with me..I’m pretty thick skinned (and I have a lot of thick skin! -hee he)