Every fiber in my being is wore the hell out.

I’m not old. I know I’m all braggin’ about having me TWO grand babies and how grandma’s have super powers.  Hooooly Sheet, I take that back. I take it ALL back.

Shaun had Pappy duty last night because I was the designated driver (show me some love) for Jennifer (my step-step daughter) her mom, Tabitha (we remember Tabitha right?) and Tabitha’s sister, Heather.  We decided to party on the go. We hit 5 bars in 5 hours. Now, finding a bar in the yup ass town I live in was quite a job.  Jen mentioned wanting to dance and I remembered this awesome dance club I use to go to when I remembered how to dance.  Pulling into the parking lot of a closed down night club was the height of my ‘oh shit, I AM OLD’ stage.
“I swear this place was open! I mean…I was here on New Years when it turned 1999!”  And that was it. That was the last time I had been ‘clubbing’.  1999.

After returning home to Jeremiah and Ariana curled up on the bed with Shaun, which by the way is the image I will have in my head as one of the top ten moments of realizing how much I truly love the man I married, I was introduced back into the world of taking care of two ‘babies’.  They are nearly the exact same age as Shea and Alyx were together as babies.  I looked at Jeremiah and thought of Alyx. I remembered how much guilt I had that i was robbing her of not getting to be the ‘baby’.  I looked at Ariana and thought of how Shea was just that tiny and now…she wants to be Hannah Montana.
THEN, after a enormous attempt of trying to get comfortable on my bed with TWO bed hogs and a sleeping baby on my chest, I decided to sleep on the floor.  It took me about a half hour of sleeping on the floor with a baby on my chest to realize that I am too old for that. I moved to the chair and tried to sleep there, with a baby on my chest.

At 7:00 AM, Tabitha came to claim her little man.

At 8:30 AM, I finally caved in and had to wake up Jennifer to have her take her so I could sleep.

I looked at Shaun and said, “How the hell did I do it?  How did I have two babies back to back like that and be able to take care of them without killing myself?”

Then I remembered, ‘Oh yea, I lost my mind.’

I do believe that God put the babies in my path this weekend. It was to remind me how strong of a woman I am. I do have limits. I do not have super Grandma powers.  I need to set limits to what I can and I can not do without help, sleep, and more water.  He also allowed me to see in pictures from Jennifer’s 21’st birthday that I look HORRIBLE when I let my hair go this long without getting it done.

Now, it’s almost midnight and I have to read up on L-CHAD because Ariana’s test results came back positive. Please pray for her, for Jennifer and for her husband who is stationed in Korea.

Have a great weekend everyone.  Friendly advice; DO NOT try staying awake for 24 solid hours to prove you’re superhuman.