And thank you…

I want to write this whole post in bold and in caps with a million exclamation points so you understand how important words are to me.
Each one of you with your words have made me re-re think my choice.  I will be going to the classes.  It’s a six week program through Kaiser, who I had given a horrible rap in the past because of the ‘cattle call’ way of treating people.  I groaned when I found out we had Kaiser, but beggars can’t be choosers.

My doctor is one bad mamma jamma though.  He emailed me to check on me several times. He made sure I had a doctor that would point me in the direction that i needed to go.
I take back all the bad stuff I ever said about Kaiser.

The first thing I am learning is how to bring things together and the guilt I feel for things undone.

I owe the internet at least 400 posts and I don’t know where to begin and I forget until someone says something.

1. Charlotte and Sue sent us baseball stuff and we are passing it on to Shaun’s father and he is thrilled to death.
2. Michelle sent me Vegemite and Tim Tams that I can’t find the email to the proper way of eating them, but I am going to post ME eating the most discusting thing outside  of raw fish and fish eggs.
3. The Hope Doll.  I don’t know where to begin. I have this doll that was sposta help my mother, but in the long run has helped me more than the blogger that sent it to me will ever know. IF she even still reads me out of hatred for not mentioning it.
4. My mother’s trip to Maui that has been delayed, but will happen.
5. A box of cookies that were peanut butter and had a peanut butter cup in the middle of them and Shaun still wakes up in the middle of the night crying for those damn cookies.
6. I was sposta post about needing help from someone.
7. Damn blog frog number 2 (first one got lost in customs) is sitting in the corner flipping me the bird because he wants to be sent out.
8. Lawbrat…I love you. I have that package I didn’t send yet, I think. I might have.
9. Damn. So many people I am forgetting. I forgot you huh?

I can’t clear out the cobwebs of anxiety until I acknowledge all the stuff I have been pushing on the backburner.

Did I forget you…go ahead and be blunt. I suck…but i’m learning. TELL ME. I need to hear it.  You all need to hear the stuff I have been avoiding because it overloaded and I had to find a place to hide it.

And again, for everyone that voiced thier opinion on my special specialist and being honest with me, THANK YOU. You’re right, I need to go and do this.

All my love,
Kristine