Today is a quiet day.
The past few days our town has been full of smoke from a fire miles away and you can’t really go outside without wanting to cough.
Today is overcast and cool. I turned down the television and I can hear the kids playing during P.E. at the middle school.
I wonder if she is one of the girls I hear up there.
What did people say about her hair today?
Did someone pick on her and hurt her feelings? Did people love it and like her father said, ‘did it set her free’?
What will come of the new hair color?
I’ve been down most of the morning. Mostly on the verge of tears thinking about everything there is to think about. Worried about everything there is to worry about. Worrying about old things from my past and things that haunt my future.
The medicine doesn’t seem to be working today. My head is full of ghosts.
I am forgetting the fine art of breathing…and it has nothing to do with the smoke that still lingers in the air.
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My daughter had me dye her hair dark brown (mines that color) from blonde at the end of the shcool year last year. She’s 13 and I felt like my baby was leaving me all over dyed hair. One minute it’s pigtails and then the next it’s….life!
I have a good friend whose boyfriend is a firefighter, he’s actually in California fighting wildfires. He works during fire season and this years fire season is and will be longer than normal. He’s the lead on a Fire Team out of New Mexico and she’s worried because the fire he is fighting is threatening to converge on another fire and become a bigger threat. I don’t know how she deals with the stress of knowing that he’s out there and what the conditions are like. They actually have a website where she can see where his crew is at all times. I know his biggest concern is to always keep his crew safe.
*hugs* i hope you feel better soon and the breathing will be easier…
What a beautiful post, in a quiet and somber way.
::reaching out to hold your hand::
Don’t be sad sissy, I love you.
Depression sucks. Are you into CBT?
Hey Kiddo! Keep your head up! You are doing so well with your life! You have 5 adoring children, a wonderful husband, you and Dan are civil with each other, you have the COOLEST mom on the planet, your beautiful, and best of all I am your friend and I have known you about half your life and you are a wonderful person! You will be good my dear! What am I saying, you ARE good! You are a wonderful person Kristine! Keep your head up and don’t let life get you down. We have had worse days than this! I wub you tons! If you haveing that bad of a day, go get locked out of the house while making Prego! =)
((HUGS))) It will get better.
You’ve got to be doing lots of things right if you have a daughter that is comfortable enough with herself to make such a change, no matter what the other kids might think. She’s one self-assured young lady, which is a great gift that she’s gotten from having loving and accepting parents. I think that is really cool!
“Looking up gives light, although at first it makes you dizzy.” -Rumi
We’re all dizzy some days, and that is okay. I hope your light is just ahead. :hugs:
You have my phone number, you HAB.
With friends like Christina K, why would you need any more? :)
In…and out…in…and out…that’s all you have to remember.
don’t even make me come over there and spray food products on you (like spray-on cheese or spray-on powdered frosting)!
I often come read here – this is just my first comment. I couldn’t help but want to leave you a *hug* at the very moment I am broke out from worrying. Hang in there, from what I’ve seen and read you have a wonderful family and wonderful talent.
okay, that’s it. we need some nekkidness now. where’s bucky when we need her, dammit?!
((hugs))
Uh….something weird is going on. My comment did show up, but now it doesn’t! You have disappearing comments!!
Well, again, I’m sorry to hear about these sad things. Hugs. I played.