24 days 20 hours & 48 minutes….

So in 25 days I’m going to be…[choke]…getting married. again.

As you can see, i’m not the cutsie-wootsy blushing bride. I thought as It got closer I would get more excited. I thought as the months turned into ‘days’ that I would get a little spring in my step and my heart would skip a beat at the thought of me in a off-white dress walking towards my groom.

I love Shaun with all my heart and I want nothing more than to be married to him, but I just don’t think i’m too old to be trying to do all of this wedding planning stuff. Actually, it’s not the planning that is getting to me. The planning is done. What we have left is buying shoes for the little girls and paying for all the stuff we ordered.

My friend, ‘Cita threw me a bridal shower and it was very nice. I had something happen right before it that sort of had me on edge. I feel bad. My mom and sister were in town and I was all stressed out.
Shaun & Tyler came through at the last minute by going over and helping my friend ‘Cita decorate. They bought these beautiful white ballons…it was sweet. It was when I walked into the house and saw them it reminded me of the reason I love him so very much. I can trust that he will always be there for me, my kids, my family and my friends.

Now it’s time for me to start getting in the mood for a wedding. My wedding. I’m going to marry the man I love.

First thing on my list is to try on the dress and make sure it still fits.

[gulp] I’ll let you know tomorrow how that goes.

Next up…tell me about the best part of your wedding or a wedding you’ve been to.

Lastly…the next 24 days my blog will probably be all icky, cutsie-wootsy so I can get into the mindset of my wedding. Wedding. WEDDING. Dress. Flowers. People other than me taking pictures of my fat ass & big arms. People everwhere…[hyperventilating]

okay, alrighty calm down. Let’s focus on what is important. Cake. Lots of wedding cake.