Last year on this day I was not happy. I was sad & frustrated…and fed up. I was done.
I’ve never been a big fan of New Year’s day anyway. It seems like all the really bad things in life, I found out on or near New Years Day.
When I was 16 I found out on a 45 minute trip to town that my best friend slept with my boyfriend. We were half way to where we were heading when new years rolled over. I was sitting in between the two of them. It was horribly painful to not be able to get out of the car or beat the living hell out of them.
When I was 18 I found out that my parents still had sex on more than just New Years Day. They had sex a lot. That just grosses me out. I love The Fonz…but EWWW. just…eww.
I found out in 1999 that the party I was waiting for, SUCKED. Prince was so wrong. I now party like it’s 1988 instead.
One New Years a few years ago I found out the guy I was obsessed with was with someone else.
The next year I spent New Years rearranging my furniture and avoiding breaking up with someone that I was with only because I was lonely.
One New Years I was with someone that wouldn’t kiss me in public because he didn’t want our friends to know we were sleeping together.
Last year, it wasn’t any better. It was almost the end of my relationship with Shaun.
This year marks a huge accomplishment in my life. I was in a relationship that I wasn’t sure I wanted to work out. I stuck with it instead of just walking out. I WORKED for this relationship.
So tonight when it rolls over to 2006 I will know that last year was one of the better years in my life. I wasn’t obsessing over someone I couldn’t have, I wasn’t with someone that was embarrassed of us and I wasn’t trying to figure out how to end a relationship I didn’t want to be in.
I earned this year.