“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing there is a field. I’ll meet you there. When the soul lies down in that grass the world is too full to talk about.” -Rumi

“When I am with you, we stay up all night. When you’re not here, I can’t go to sleep. Praise God for those two insomnias! And the difference between them.” -Rumi

We will have to repent in this generation not merely for the hateful words and actions of the bad people but for the appalling silence of the good people. — “Letter from Birmingham Jail,” April 16, 1963

Respect your haters. They are the ones who think you are better than them. -Unknown

You don’t understand, no-one does. When a woman makes the choice to marry, to have children; in one way her life begins but in another way it stops. You build a life of details. You become a mother, a wife and you stop and stay steady so that your children can move. And when they leave they take your life of details with them. And then you’re expected move again only you don’t remember what moves you because no-one has asked in so long. Not even yourself. You never in your life think that love like this can happen to you. -Francesca, Bridges of Madison County

“Motherfuckin’ tittysuckin’ two-balled bitch!” -Agent Zoil – Paul

postcard from the 2001 kristine

2 December, 2008 /

I’m trying to locate the bedroom floor again. It’s weird how many times I do that in a month huh?

I stumbled on about 7 old check books. Not that anyone could actually get anything if they stole my identity, but I do take some precautions and destroying checkbooks from accounts that are not active is one of them. I found the carbon copy from some checks I had written years ago and decided to look at them before I began my destruction ripping.

It’s was like the past-me came up to now-me and slapped me right in the face. HARD.
I spent money on real hair care products. I spent money on books from the old book store from the town over. I had a lunch with a friend. I spent Monday night at a place to watch football with others around me and I bought a drink. I took my car in for oil changes. I enrolled in college.

I know just going through an old check book register does not really reveal the person I was and what I was going through at that time, because only I know where I was in my head…it just looked pretty good on paper for a minute.