Random and Odd

So sorry…

I could go back to my last post and fix about 35 of my spelling errors and sentence fragments, but you know what? Screw it. I wrote that from the heart.
With my head phones on listening to music.
With all the realness I had in me.
The real me, sucks at spelling: sentence structure: coloring OUTSIDE of the lines : picking the right color: and a million other things.

I’m angry today. I’m also really sad. I need to learn how to step back from some things and figure out how to go about them before I allow myself to be consumed by something that it takes over ME.

So, what and I angry and sad about? Dan’s girlfriend broke up with him today.
I am so pissed at her.
We allowed her into our world with open arms, we let her meet our children, we taught her the secret handshake and what does she do? She allows us to believe that she is in it to win it. She is lovin’ up on him. She is treating my kids like what a mother would hope her ex-husband would date.
She rolled into our lives and made plans and talked about the future…and then after a wonderful weekend that I allowed my children to be a part of, she dumps him?
She didn’t just break up with my ex-husband…she broke up with my kids.

I am so pissed at her. How could someone pretend up until the very last day that she is into you and your family and then ‘oh, sorry.’

See, this is the part where I have to learn to not be consumed by it. It just sucks, he was so happy. I was happy he was happy. Now my heart is just broken for him.

Charlotte, it looks like you’re going to have to marry him after all. That whole lesbian thing is going to have to be put on the back burner for a wee-bit alright?
I swear, what is happening around us?