Happy Fucking New Year…
Well, it’s the last day of 2004.
Thank GOD!
I have been blog hopping the last couple of days. It seems like this year sucked for everyone. It did end in the horrible #4 so it was doomed from day one.
I make no resolutions this year. I refuse to make myself more promises that I know I am going to break within 15 minutes of making them.
I do plan on making some changes in my life though. They are not going to be easy changes, but I can’t live the way I have for another year.
I don’t want to be sitting here writing about how unhappy I am. I am not a depressed person. I am not a person who sit around and dwells on the shit in her life. I have been through enough in my life to not want to wake up AGAIN and say, “How the hell did I get to THIS point in my life?” I don’t want to be looking for an easy escape to get the fuck out of the mess I have gotten myself into.
There is more…i’m just too pissed, hurt, angry, frustrated, … to write anymore.
Happy Fucking New Year.
7 Comments
Mrs.Strizzay
Right back at ya ;0)
You have the power to change anything and everything you want. Grab life by the balls and squeeze.
Closet Metro
I’d suggest that you either try counseling, or call it quits. I wish my ex-wife and I had gone to counseling before it was too late. Ask yourself this question: is it worth fixing?
Whatever you decide to do, I hope you find your “happily ever after.”
Dave
ferncanyonman
It sounds like we are going through the same New-Year angst. No resolutions, no promises, just try to survive one day to the next.
“…I can’t live the way I have for another year … I am not a depressed person. I am not a person who sits around and dwells on the shit in her life.”
This sounds way too familiar to me. For 20 years I wondered if there was something wrong with me, if I was crazy, but then thought I could figure out everything by myself and be fine in the end. I am glad I finally scared myself into therapy and started taking medicine, although I still ride the emotional roller coaster way too often.
It seems like unhappy people who say they are not depressed might be depressed people that haven’t realized or admitted it. I hope things get better for you.
Hey, it’s a new year!! (bleh) ;-)
dashababy
nothing like good ol’ fury to put a fire in your belly. it can be very constructive. go with it. its better than being scared.
shellibells
Usually if something feels so god it is not good for us mentally, spiritually or emotionally…possibly all 3! I have not quite let go of my X yet but I know he is gone for good. Men suck. Happy-er New year, and yes, i think 2004 pretty much sucked for everyone I know too! I am so glad it’s over….here’s to a fresh start!
Pissy Britches
Damn..I am sorry that you are pissed off. I understand. I stay pissed off, lucklily I get over it quickly! Or lucky for everybody around here should I say. If I didn’t have a husband and a child I would sit around and rot I guess. Girl, I hope that you cheer up. You can talk to US! Come on, this is what we have a blog for. So we can bitch bitch and bitch some more! I hope that this year is a happy year for you!
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