Anxiety,  Random and Odd

Happy Fucking New Year…

31 December, 2004 /

Well, it’s the last day of 2004.
Thank GOD!

I have been blog hopping the last couple of days. It seems like this year sucked for everyone. It did end in the horrible #4 so it was doomed from day one.

I make no resolutions this year. I refuse to make myself more promises that I know I am going to break within 15 minutes of making them.

I do plan on making some changes in my life though. They are not going to be easy changes, but I can’t live the way I have for another year.
I don’t want to be sitting here writing about how unhappy I am. I am not a depressed person. I am not a person who sit around and dwells on the shit in her life. I have been through enough in my life to not want to wake up AGAIN and say, “How the hell did I get to THIS point in my life?” I don’t want to be looking for an easy escape to get the fuck out of the mess I have gotten myself into.

There is more…i’m just too pissed, hurt, angry, frustrated, … to write anymore.

Happy Fucking New Year.

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7 Comments

  • Closet Metro

    31 December, 2004 at 8:46 am

    I’d suggest that you either try counseling, or call it quits. I wish my ex-wife and I had gone to counseling before it was too late. Ask yourself this question: is it worth fixing?

    Whatever you decide to do, I hope you find your “happily ever after.”

    Dave

  • ferncanyonman

    31 December, 2004 at 9:18 pm

    It sounds like we are going through the same New-Year angst. No resolutions, no promises, just try to survive one day to the next.

    “…I can’t live the way I have for another year … I am not a depressed person. I am not a person who sits around and dwells on the shit in her life.”

    This sounds way too familiar to me. For 20 years I wondered if there was something wrong with me, if I was crazy, but then thought I could figure out everything by myself and be fine in the end. I am glad I finally scared myself into therapy and started taking medicine, although I still ride the emotional roller coaster way too often.

    It seems like unhappy people who say they are not depressed might be depressed people that haven’t realized or admitted it. I hope things get better for you.

    Hey, it’s a new year!! (bleh) ;-)

  • shellibells

    1 January, 2005 at 3:25 pm

    Usually if something feels so god it is not good for us mentally, spiritually or emotionally…possibly all 3! I have not quite let go of my X yet but I know he is gone for good. Men suck. Happy-er New year, and yes, i think 2004 pretty much sucked for everyone I know too! I am so glad it’s over….here’s to a fresh start!

  • Pissy Britches

    1 January, 2005 at 5:43 pm

    Damn..I am sorry that you are pissed off. I understand. I stay pissed off, lucklily I get over it quickly! Or lucky for everybody around here should I say. If I didn’t have a husband and a child I would sit around and rot I guess. Girl, I hope that you cheer up. You can talk to US! Come on, this is what we have a blog for. So we can bitch bitch and bitch some more! I hope that this year is a happy year for you!