Random and Odd

To say, ‘we have some stuff going on…’ would be a massive understatment…

I realize it’s been forever since I have posted a damn thing about anything with someone in this house…
Funny things have happened here, but I’m still trying to get a grasp on how to deal with all the stuff that is going to be able to fully be able to laugh at stuff.

I had to stop the Chantix. I’m not exactly sure is one of the side effects was causing this uncomfortable problem, but I wasn’t taking any chances.   I did notice that the taste of cigs did get a 1% less appealing, but other than that, 2 weeks of it didn’t work.  I realized that i’m not addicted to the crap IN the cig..I’m addicted to the act of smoking.  I love smoking…the act and intimacy of it.  Can someone PLEASE invent a cig that I can smoke that won’t freaking kill me. I will smoke freaking lettuce leaves if someone will roll it and put a damn filter on it!
I know I need ‘rules’ to smoking if I am going to quit on my own without pills or patches.  I just don’t want to swallow another pill unless it’s a vitamin….and I don’t do patches after that one time with that one (top of the ‘most embarrassing moment’ list).   Sorry to let you all down on that one…and the whole losing weight thing…and everything else I have managed to fail at.

I am pretty close to seeing all the stupid movies for the grammy…oscar…what the hell am I watching all these damn movies again for?

See? losing my mind.

I did clean the garage. FREAKING excited about THAT.  Throwing away about 90% of what we own!! :)

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10 Comments

  • traci

    It takes an average of 8 tries to quit smoking. Please don’t stop trying.

    I’ve watched both of my parents die from lung cancer in the past three and a half years. It’s not pretty.

    Your children should not have to see that. Ever.

  • ~Easy

    It took me many tries to quit. One thing that helped me was toothpicks. When I got in the car, I stuck a toothpick in my mouth. After a meal I stuck a toothpick in my mouth. When I opened a beer, I. . .well, you get the idea.

    I realize it’s not sexy, but it helped me a lot.

  • mandy

    I have to tell you, after I mentioned the chantix made me a nutt-job..I had the exact problem. The act of it, how do I fall out of love with that? It’s weird. When I quit, every time, it caused me to fall into a depression that was even crazier than the chantix. Sometimes I would start back just to reverse that side of it. I think you need to have some sort of DR support when you do it, if you experience that. I had to go to the ER cause it was just that bad. But, after I was on a med for that, I quit again, with the patch. It took about 2 weeks before those cravings-for the act, to leave my mind. I missed the act. So, recently I was upset and out of defiance went and bought a pack. I was instantly hooked AGAIN. After a month and a half, we decided to quit again. It was just as hard as it was every other time, I won’t lie. I was a raging B for the first few days, my hus wanted to kill me. But, slowly it got better. I am on anti-dep and I know my doc will help if I have issues with that side of things. I had to be completely committed to quitting. It’s rough. I hate it. I would love to just be able to do it forever and ever with no consequences, but I know-for my kids, I cannot. I started using my treadmill, that I have had for years and never used. I walk about 30 minutes 4 x a week or so. I have to tell you, that even that little bit made me feel so good, like I would if I smoked. I thought, I can replace that with this! So far, it’s helping.

    You’re not a failure, this is some tough stuff. I pray you conquer it, and can squash it right out of your life. For you. It sucks, always will, but once you are through it, you can be free.

  • Melissa

    Kris…i’m coming up on 2 years of not smoking. I LOVE LOVE LOVE smoking…in fact just yesterday i was talking about something i said “well i’m a smoker…” and the person interrupted me and said “you don’t smoke”…so even 2 years in of not smoking, i still feel like a smoker.

    That being said…i did what is called auricular therapy…it doesn’t hurt…and SERIOUSLY it worked…i stopped cigarettes and caffeine the same day…one day of withdrawals and then boom…did i (do i) still want a cigarette…yes…but i do not nor never had that let me choke you because i NEED a cigarette.

    for full disclosure…i did this once before and stopped for 4 months and then started back…but the biggest part of no more smoking is wanting to stop…before i was stopping because i felt like i “should” not because i wanted to.

    if i ever find out i have a terminal illness…i’ll start smoking again for sure.

    good luck!

  • John

    Nicorette worked for me when I quit five year ago. I only used one box of it. I would pop a piece of the gum every time I had a craving. But not just any old craving…the kind of craving where, if I didn’t have a cigarette, I would fucking kill people and torture small animals. The gum took the edge off so I could get through the craving with only minimal carnage. It took about a month for the cravings to begin to subside to the point where I didn’t need to have the gum on me at all times. Finally, the cravings went away. As far as the oral fixation part of smoking goes, I substituted Tootsie Pops for about a week or so. I got so sick of them that the oral fixation went away.

    I hope this helps. They say it’s easier to kick heroin than cigarettes, so you know what you’re up against. But if I can do it (and I’m the biggest wuss when it comes to pain and discomfort) you can do it.

    Good luck.

  • Kimmy

    No, no, no, no, noooooooo — Larry hasn’t had a cigarette in over a month. No gum, no patch, no pills. He has bought several different variations of the electronic cigarette. Tons of different flavors and ‘brands’.

    The best part about about it is, you take into places that don’t allow smoking. LIKE AN AIRPLANE! (which we did when we went to Hawaii)

    You feel the draw, you taste the smoke and you exhale.

    This may be the next thing I gift to you LOL — Seriously, google it. DSE-901 They are giving them away in gift bags at the British Oscars!

  • feisty_jenn

    have you read Alan Carr’s “Easy Way To Stop Smoking” book? i think you might really find it helpful…and i’ve seen it work HUGE for people (with the benefit that they seem to be able to happily hang out w/ smokers…its just that they don’t smoke anymore, as opposed to too many ex-smokers who get religion about anti-smoking).