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I should’ve asked you questions. I should’ve asked you how to be.
It’s the end of the year and it’s usually time to reflect, but I spend countless hours in therapy doing just that and I am ready to look forward. I had an anxiety attack in the dentist’s chair on Friday and it shook me as It’s been about 6 months since I had one that…
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The last 13th of the year
I had a relapse this weekend. I could feel it coming on Saturday, but I had obligations and I wanted to be sure to make them so I powered through. I got home early and started to feel the chills and fever start in. By late Saturday night I was back in the throes of…
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4am is my nemesis
Every morning at 4 am I wake up and all the bullshit of my life wakes me up and screams in my face. I’ve been up since 4 and no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t go back to sleep because my anxiety decided it was time to catch up on all the things…
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Conversations while solo decorating.
I debated if I should put up a tree this year. The cost of one was just stupid, my kids aren’t making it for Christmas and it just seemed like a waste of money. My friend who doesn’t put up their tree anymore gave me theirs, The box would now sit in my living room…
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Well, I landed myself in the hospital. It’s not because I did something stupid, but because it’s heredity and now I need to change my lifestyle. I have quit smoking, drinking soda and my diet is now completely changed. It was the wake up call I needed for the change I have been wanting for…
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“I can’t face reinvention. I haven’t met the new me yet”
Been digging deep recently. I missed my Monday meeting because I was coming back from visiting my sister. It was one of those awesome trips where I got to visit with my family. We got my mother’s headstone put in. It was a great weekend. The hard part was on Tuesday when I just got…









