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It’s been a bit, but I know I am ready to open up.
\nThings have been shitty for awhile and I think I am ready to be on the other side that.
\nI was working through the death of my mother and\u00a0 then my brother passed away.\u00a0 It’s a weird thing to think that he’s not here anymore.
\nThis year has been a mother fucker, the year before it was a mother fucker too.\u00a0 I’m really ready for things to get better for everyone.<\/p>\n

After writing out a huge paragraph of what I was feeling and what I am angry about I just deleted it all.\u00a0 I guess I am not ready to open up just yet.
\nI’m still writing in my journal.\u00a0 It’s mostly passive death shit, but at least I am getting it out.\u00a0 \u00a0If someone were to find it they would think I was about to climb the clock tower.
\nNope, just an old woman who is tired, so very tired of it.<\/p>\n

I was talking to a male friend about the state of relationships and I told him I could relate to one of our girlfriends who “doesn’t feel anything.”\u00a0 She was\u00a0 hurt by someone that was suppose to be the love of her life and is struggling with letting that feeling go enough to where she can feel the good.
\nI can relate to that because I don’t feel anything either.\u00a0 It’s been 2 years since my ex and I broke up and I’m not moving someone in out of fear of being alone.\u00a0 I am enjoying the being alone part.\u00a0 The struggle comes from not feeling that I am going to ‘love’ someone ever again.\u00a0 \u00a0That is the feeling I miss most, that flush of emotion that comes with being in love with them.<\/p>\n

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