{"id":4055,"date":"2025-01-09T15:11:01","date_gmt":"2025-01-09T22:11:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/?p=4055"},"modified":"2025-01-09T15:11:01","modified_gmt":"2025-01-09T22:11:01","slug":"chloe-or-sam-or-sophia-or-marcus","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/?p=4055","title":{"rendered":"Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus."},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>&#8220;If you want to break my cold, cold heart Just say, &#8216;I loved you the way that you were'&#8221;<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Who am I now?\u00a0 I&#8217;m cold. I&#8217;m not unfeeling, but no one sees how anything effects me anymore.\u00a0 That way no one can say that I over reacted, didn&#8217;t react the way they wanted me to.<br \/>\nI was reading a book and the MMC was &#8220;unfeeling&#8221;\u00a0 and if you&#8217;re one of those people they call unfeeling you know that person feels EVERYTHING and all at once and it&#8217;s very overwhelming.<\/p>\n<p>I maybe calm now, I may be emotionless and seem as if I am unbothered.\u00a0 That is not what is going on in my head or heart.\u00a0 I am feeling everything, especially the hurt at a level that it makes my throat close up and my chest feels like it&#8217;s going to implode on itself.<\/p>\n<p>Most days my throat has closed and the dead eye is because I just can&#8217;t feel anymore for that day.<\/p>\n<p>Someday I will smile again, but not today, not this week, not this month&#8230;.likely not this year.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&#8220;If you want to break my cold, cold heart Just say, &#8216;I loved you the way that you were&#8217;&#8221; &nbsp; Who am I now?\u00a0 I&#8217;m cold. I&#8217;m not unfeeling, but no one sees how anything effects me anymore.\u00a0 That way no one can say that I over reacted, didn&#8217;t react the way they wanted me&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4055","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4055","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4055"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4055\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4056,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4055\/revisions\/4056"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4055"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4055"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4055"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}