{"id":4027,"date":"2024-10-02T12:32:53","date_gmt":"2024-10-02T19:32:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/?p=4027"},"modified":"2024-10-02T12:32:53","modified_gmt":"2024-10-02T19:32:53","slug":"meh","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/?p=4027","title":{"rendered":"meh."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>i started writing in an actual journal again.\u00a0 mostly because the things i am thinking can&#8217;t be put in digital form for anyone to read. this is one of those that you hope no one cracks open when your dead and reads it because it&#8217;s fucking dark.<br \/>\ni do need to get it all out though.\u00a0 there is one person i can talk about it to because she gets it. my sister wouldn&#8217;t understand and i can tell she struggles with the fact that i don&#8217;t believe in god anymore so what is going to keep me tethered to this world without that belief?\u00a0 \u00a0i ask myself that often&#8230;well, not the belief part.<br \/>\ni think about my future, like where do i go from here.\u00a0 not an uncommon question, but at this point one would think you would have that figured out. everything i focus on isn&#8217;t appealing at all.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>i started writing in an actual journal again.\u00a0 mostly because the things i am thinking can&#8217;t be put in digital form for anyone to read. this is one of those that you hope no one cracks open when your dead and reads it because it&#8217;s fucking dark. i do need to get it all out&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4027","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4027","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4027"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4027\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4028,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4027\/revisions\/4028"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4027"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4027"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4027"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}