{"id":3018,"date":"2016-07-18T11:35:46","date_gmt":"2016-07-18T18:35:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/?p=3018"},"modified":"2016-07-18T11:35:46","modified_gmt":"2016-07-18T18:35:46","slug":"cry-me-a-river","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/?p=3018","title":{"rendered":"Cry me a river…"},"content":{"rendered":"

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I went to Redding this weekend and my sister and I had couple of nice hikes.<\/span><\/p>\n

We went to some waterfalls up in Mt. Shasta and then made our way over to a lake to walk off our lunch.<\/span>
\n<\/span>We came across this bridge that a bunch of kids were jumping off of. There was this young blonde girl and her boyfriend standing on the edge. She laughed and let go. \u00a0He jumped in right after her. \u00a0I walked to the edge to see the two had entangled in an embrace and were kissing. \u00a0Tears instantly filled my eyes. \u00a0<\/span>
\n<\/span>E use to talk with such love when he spoke of our time as kids when we would jump off the cliffs of Whispering Waters back behind my old house. \u00a0The last time he was out there he said he could smell us out there. \u00a0I didn\u2019t fully understand what he meant. There was no way our scent had stuck around for 25 years for him to smell. \u00a0As I stood out there and watched the couple swim off to the island I took a deep inhale of air. \u00a0I could smell my youth. \u00a0It was the smell of sunshine, warm pine needles and wet skin. \u00a0Yes, I could smell us.<\/span>
\n<\/span>The lump in my throat showed me that despite knowing that it was an unhealthy relationship and I am better off, that need for my innocence to not be sullied by what happened was something that still hurt. <\/span>
\n<\/span>
\n<\/span>I finally had that conversation with my daughter. \u00a0She laughed and cracked jokes. I didn\u2019t really expect anything different, but it sucked having to tell her those things.<\/span>
\n<\/span>
\n<\/span>When I think about it now I have to keep telling myself that I am grateful for this time and be happy that I got to love with 100% of my heart one more time. I didn\u2019t leave anything left unsaid. I made some amazing memories that I will carry with me until I die. <\/span>
\n<\/span>
\n<\/span>Being up there was harder than even I had prepared myself for. Passing the exit off of I-5, looking at the moon and stars…just about everything was a reminder. \u00a0It will get easier and I told myself that a million times when I was there, \u201cI will forget all the little details someday and everything will be fine.\u201d<\/span>
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\n<\/span>I know, you\u2019re sick of hearing it as much I am saying it…cry me a river, right?<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

  I went to Redding this weekend and my sister and I had couple of nice hikes. We went to some waterfalls up in Mt. Shasta and then made our way over to a lake to walk off our lunch. We came across this bridge that a bunch of kids were jumping off of. There was this young blonde girl and her boyfriend standing on the edge. She laughed and let go. \u00a0He jumped in right after her. \u00a0I walked to the edge to see the two had entangled in an embrace and were kissing. \u00a0Tears instantly filled my eyes. \u00a0 E use to talk with such love when he spoke of our time as kids when we would jump off the cliffs of Whispering Waters back behind my old house. \u00a0The last time he was out there he said he could smell us out there. \u00a0I didn\u2019t fully understand what he meant. There was no way our scent had stuck around for 25 years for him to smell. \u00a0As I stood out there and watched the couple swim off to the island I took a deep inhale of air. \u00a0I could smell my youth. \u00a0It was the smell of sunshine, warm pine needles and wet skin. \u00a0Yes, I could smell us. The lump in my throat showed me that despite knowing that it was an unhealthy relationship and I am better off, that need for my innocence to not be sullied by what happened was something that still hurt. I finally had that conversation with my daughter. \u00a0She laughed and cracked jokes. I didn\u2019t really expect anything different, but it sucked having to tell her those things. When I think about it now I have to keep telling myself that I am grateful for this time and be happy that I got to love with 100% of my heart one more time. I didn\u2019t leave anything left unsaid. I made some amazing memories that I will carry with me until I die. Being up there was harder than even I had prepared myself for. Passing the exit off of I-5, looking at the moon and stars…just about everything was a reminder. \u00a0It will get easier and I told myself that a million times when I was there, \u201cI will forget all the little details someday and everything will be fine.\u201d I know, you\u2019re sick of hearing it as much I am saying it…cry me a river, right?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3018","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3018","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3018"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3018\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3020,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3018\/revisions\/3020"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3018"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3018"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3018"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}