Another weekend in the books.<\/p>\n
I had a Celebration of Life BBQ I went to on Saturday. \u00a0My friend, Midori has terminal liver cancer and all of her hockey family got together to give her some love and spend some time with her.
\nI met Midori while I was scorekeeping a few years ago. \u00a0It was a job to just have a few extra dollars between the photo shoots and weddings I was busy doing. \u00a0I was at the rink all the time anyway because my boyfriend played hockey there on Sundays. \u00a0 Midori was quiet, but she was fun to hang out with. \u00a0I use to play her dance music and watch her in the stands as she cheered on her husband. \u00a0She would dance and always had the greatest smile. \u00a0After my boyfriend and I broke up she kept in touch. \u00a0Always sending a text when I needed it the most. \u00a0 She’s a believer and one day after she found out she had cancer I asked her how she was doing and she said, “I am grateful and give thanks to the Lord for cancer.” \u00a0I was stunned. \u00a0She explained that she is stronger because of it and her walk with the Lord is more clear now. She knows what is truly important in this life.
\nI am a better person because this amazing woman calls me ‘friend’. \u00a0The best thing about being her friend is that I wouldn’t have to explain that last sentence to any of her friends because I know they all feel the exact same way. \u00a0 She has makes us better.<\/p>\n
After the BBQ I was surrounded by my old friends, Kent and Jennifer. \u00a0We had pizza, laughed and talked about old times when we use to live in this townhouse in Redding. \u00a0I love the stories they remember. We ended the night going out to get frozen yogurt and listening to Shea tell us all about Pokemon Go.<\/p>\n
I’m thinking about moving. \u00a0There is a place downtown that I am thinking about. \u00a0If it falls through, I still think I am ready to leave Rocklin. \u00a0I only stayed because of the girls getting through high school. \u00a0I wanted to be here for them and because of it I am struggling financially trying to stay in this overpriced apartment. \u00a0It’s time to get into a new place that doesn’t cost me so much and has a better commute to and from work. \u00a0If I live downtown I won’t fight the traffic going up to Fair Oaks and on the way home everyone is leaving downtown to go back home. \u00a0Either way it will need to be closer to where I work. \u00a0I am tired of the drive. \u00a0The girls are doing their own things now and it’s time to go.<\/p>\n
That’s pretty much it. \u00a0The heartbreak is getting better. I’m not sad anymore. I am not angry anymore. \u00a0Confused as fuck, but I just have to shake my head when I think about it and remember that there was no logic to the things that were said. \u00a0 The dreams are lessening. \u00a0 The one I had the other night was about a house built on a cliff overlooking the ocean. \u00a0During low tide it was beautiful. \u00a0Everything you would ever wish for in a home. \u00a0I was walking for the door and a giant wave hit and I could feel it in my chest. \u00a0I turned around to look out of the front of the house that was all glass and another giant wave hit causing the whole house to move and go completely white. \u00a0It scared me. \u00a0I walked over to the glass and I put my hand on it as the next wave hit and I said, “I can’t live here.” \u00a0I knew that even though it was everything I ever wanted, there would be these violent waves that would have me scared the rest of the time. \u00a0 That pretty much summed up my relationship with E.
\nIn the last conversation I had with his mother she said, “You dodged a bullet. You don’t have to live with this craziness.”
\nAs time passes, I see that is true.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Another weekend in the books. I had a Celebration of Life BBQ I went to on Saturday. \u00a0My friend, Midori has terminal liver cancer and all of her hockey family got together to give her some love and spend some time with her. I met Midori while I was scorekeeping a few years ago. \u00a0It was a job to just have a few extra dollars between the photo shoots and weddings I was busy doing. \u00a0I was at the rink all the time anyway because my boyfriend played hockey there on Sundays. \u00a0 Midori was quiet, but she was fun to hang out with. \u00a0I use to play her dance music and watch her in the stands as she cheered on her husband. \u00a0She would dance and always had the greatest smile. \u00a0After my boyfriend and I broke up she kept in touch. \u00a0Always sending a text when I needed it the most. \u00a0 She’s a believer and one day after she found out she had cancer I asked her how she was doing and she said, “I am grateful and give thanks to the Lord for cancer.” \u00a0I was stunned. \u00a0She explained that she is stronger because of it and her walk with the Lord is more clear now. She knows what is truly important in this life. I am a better person because this amazing woman calls me ‘friend’. \u00a0The best thing about being her friend is that I wouldn’t have to explain that last sentence to any of her friends because I know they all feel the exact same way. \u00a0 She has makes us better. After the BBQ I was surrounded by my old friends, Kent and Jennifer. \u00a0We had pizza, laughed and talked about old times when we use to live in this townhouse in Redding. \u00a0I love the stories they remember. We ended the night going out to get frozen yogurt and listening to Shea tell us all about Pokemon Go. I’m thinking about moving. \u00a0There is a place downtown that I am thinking about. \u00a0If it falls through, I still think I am ready to leave Rocklin. \u00a0I only stayed because of the girls getting through high school. \u00a0I wanted to be here for them and because of it I am struggling financially trying to stay in this overpriced apartment. \u00a0It’s time to get into a new place that doesn’t cost me so much and has a better commute to and from work. \u00a0If I live downtown I won’t fight the traffic going up to Fair Oaks and on the way home everyone is leaving downtown to go back home. \u00a0Either way it will need to be closer to where I work. \u00a0I am tired of the drive. \u00a0The girls are doing their own things now and it’s time to go. That’s pretty much it. \u00a0The heartbreak is getting better. I’m not sad anymore. I am not angry anymore. \u00a0Confused as fuck, but I just have to shake my head when I think about it and remember that there was no logic to the things that were said. \u00a0 The dreams are lessening. \u00a0 The one I had the other night was about a house built on a cliff overlooking the ocean. \u00a0During low tide it was beautiful. \u00a0Everything you would ever wish for in a home. \u00a0I was walking for the door and a giant wave hit and I could feel it in my chest. \u00a0I turned around to look out of the front of the house that was all glass and another giant wave hit causing the whole house to move and go completely white. \u00a0It scared me. \u00a0I walked over to the glass and I put my hand on it as the next wave hit and I said, “I can’t live here.” \u00a0I knew that even though it was everything I ever wanted, there would be these violent waves that would have me scared the rest of the time. \u00a0 That pretty much summed up my relationship with E. In the last conversation I had with his mother she said, “You dodged a bullet. 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