Have you ever thought about a certain day and how it can change your whole life? \u00a0What if you knew what that date was? \u00a0What if it was coming up?
\nI’m faced with exactly that. I have a lot of changes coming up soon that I thought I wouldn’t be ready for, like Shea graduating from high school. \u00a0The reality is that I am ready. That day use to scare me because that would mean a sense of freedom I have not had in roughly 23 years. \u00a0My grand plan was that I was going to pack it up and move back to Redding and spend my last half of my life with my sister. \u00a0Like a nimrod I didn’t exactly financially plan for it though. \u00a0When I met my second husband I was certain that we would build a life here and watch the girls grow up and live happily ever after. \u00a0Fairytale endings don’t seem to work out for me though. \u00a0Or maybe they do. We shall see.<\/p>\n
I was on a trail run with my crew last weekend and mid run I stopped. \u00a0“I know the date that my whole life is going to change and things will never be the same. It won’t be the same as it is today. I’m going to change and things are going to be different.”
\nIt was scary and thrilling at the same time. \u00a0As that day draws closer I want to better prepare myself for it and that means living authentically. \u00a0Last night something threw itself in my path and I approached it as honestly as I could. \u00a0 Walking around the situation with fresh eyes and seeing it for what it was. A test. \u00a0This was a test to see if I could handle this new change. \u00a0Stepping back from it, but being honest with my feelings for it I examined it. \u00a0Was it going to bring me happiness? No. \u00a0Was it going to make me love myself more? Absolutely not. \u00a0Not needing to examine it further I decided to let the other person see it for what it was as well. \u00a0 When one is not living authentically they grow angry at examination and that is exactly what happened.
\nI believe I have heard the last of it and the test was passed. \u00a0I’m glad it happened now and not after the upcoming date of change. \u00a0I was able to live in that moment and deal with it the best way that I could.<\/p>\n
I’m excited for change. \u00a0This is new for me. \u00a0The unexpected has always frightened me, but for once I am ready with open arms.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Have you ever thought about a certain day and how it can change your whole life? \u00a0What if you knew what that date was? \u00a0What if it was coming up? I’m faced with exactly that. I have a lot of changes coming up soon that I thought I wouldn’t be ready for, like Shea graduating from high school. \u00a0The reality is that I am ready. That day use to scare me because that would mean a sense of freedom I have not had in roughly 23 years. \u00a0My grand plan was that I was going to pack it up and move back to Redding and spend my last half of my life with my sister. \u00a0Like a nimrod I didn’t exactly financially plan for it though. \u00a0When I met my second husband I was certain that we would build a life here and watch the girls grow up and live happily ever after. \u00a0Fairytale endings don’t seem to work out for me though. \u00a0Or maybe they do. We shall see. I was on a trail run with my crew last weekend and mid run I stopped. \u00a0“I know the date that my whole life is going to change and things will never be the same. It won’t be the same as it is today. I’m going to change and things are going to be different.” It was scary and thrilling at the same time. \u00a0As that day draws closer I want to better prepare myself for it and that means living authentically. \u00a0Last night something threw itself in my path and I approached it as honestly as I could. \u00a0 Walking around the situation with fresh eyes and seeing it for what it was. A test. \u00a0This was a test to see if I could handle this new change. \u00a0Stepping back from it, but being honest with my feelings for it I examined it. \u00a0Was it going to bring me happiness? No. \u00a0Was it going to make me love myself more? Absolutely not. \u00a0Not needing to examine it further I decided to let the other person see it for what it was as well. \u00a0 When one is not living authentically they grow angry at examination and that is exactly what happened. I believe I have heard the last of it and the test was passed. \u00a0I’m glad it happened now and not after the upcoming date of change. \u00a0I was able to live in that moment and deal with it the best way that I could. I’m excited for change. \u00a0This is new for me. \u00a0The unexpected has always frightened me, but for once I am ready with open arms.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2958","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2958","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2958"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2958\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2959,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2958\/revisions\/2959"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2958"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2958"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2958"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}