{"id":2273,"date":"2012-03-06T12:41:02","date_gmt":"2012-03-06T19:41:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/?p=2273"},"modified":"2012-03-06T12:41:02","modified_gmt":"2012-03-06T19:41:02","slug":"40th","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/?p=2273","title":{"rendered":"40th&#8230;."},"content":{"rendered":"<style type=\"text\/css\">\n.flickr-photo { border: solid 2px #000000; }\n.flickr-yourcomment { }\n.flickr-frame { text-align: left; padding: 3px; }\n.flickr-caption { font-size: 0.8em; margin-top: 0px; }\n<\/style>\n<div class=\"flickr-frame\">\n\t<a href=\"http:\/\/www.flickr.com\/photos\/obnoxiousaries\/6905295223\/\" title=\"photo sharing\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/farm8.staticflickr.com\/7205\/6905295223_2fb1f0e64a.jpg\" class=\"flickr-photo\" alt=\"\" \/><\/a><br \/>\n<br \/>\n\t<span class=\"flickr-caption\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.flickr.com\/photos\/obnoxiousaries\/6905295223\/\">DSC_8667<\/a>, originally uploaded by <a href=\"http:\/\/www.flickr.com\/photos\/obnoxiousaries\/\">Random and Odd<\/a>.<\/span>\n<\/div>\n<p class=\"flickr-yourcomment\">\n\tWe are nearing the actual birthday day and I&#8217;m happy, but kind of sad because I miss Kara.<\/p>\n<p>For the last 19 years I have given up my birthday so Kara could have a good one.  My ex friend Nancy threw me a wonderful 30th birthday party where my family showed up, I was surrounded by friends and it was stress free and fun.  The last couple of years I had thought of all the things I would do for my 40th birthday and as it got near I realized all I wanted was to have my friends and family near me.<br \/>\nNow as it gets even closer I realize I would give up my birthday if I could just have Kara here surrounded by her friends and family.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s a huge hole without Kara here and Christmas was nice, but she was missed.  It&#8217;s getting to the point where it&#8217;s hard to talk about her with the girls because they miss her so much and we have no idea when she&#8217;s coming back, if she ever will.  I was sad for so long when she moved and then I realized that hurt wasn&#8217;t going to go away until she came back so I decided to not hurt anymore, but in the process I feel like I have lost her.<\/p>\n<p>I know things change and people go away. My life has been a huge example of just that.  The only thing that I have to hold on to is that I know that happens and no matter what you do or how hard you try to hold on&#8230;it might happen regardless so just enjoy the time you have.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve learned to not base your whole world around another person, be it your child or spouse&#8230;because when your child grows up and leaves,&#8230;what are you left with? A life you have to figure out how to navigate through that isn&#8217;t based on what they are doing or when do you pick them up after their drama class? <\/p>\n<p>*sigh*  I miss my daughter, though.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>DSC_8667, originally uploaded by Random and Odd. We are nearing the actual birthday day and I&#8217;m happy, but kind of sad because I miss Kara. For the last 19 years I have given up my birthday so Kara could have a good one. My ex friend Nancy threw me a wonderful 30th birthday party where my family showed up, I was surrounded by friends and it was stress free and fun. The last couple of years I had thought of all the things I would do for my 40th birthday and as it got near I realized all I wanted was to have my friends and family near me. Now as it gets even closer I realize I would give up my birthday if I could just have Kara here surrounded by her friends and family. It&#8217;s a huge hole without Kara here and Christmas was nice, but she was missed. It&#8217;s getting to the point where it&#8217;s hard to talk about her with the girls because they miss her so much and we have no idea when she&#8217;s coming back, if she ever will. I was sad for so long when she moved and then I realized that hurt wasn&#8217;t going to go away until she came back so I decided to not hurt anymore, but in the process I feel like I have lost her. I know things change and people go away. My life has been a huge example of just that. The only thing that I have to hold on to is that I know that happens and no matter what you do or how hard you try to hold on&#8230;it might happen regardless so just enjoy the time you have. I&#8217;ve learned to not base your whole world around another person, be it your child or spouse&#8230;because when your child grows up and leaves,&#8230;what are you left with? A life you have to figure out how to navigate through that isn&#8217;t based on what they are doing or when do you pick them up after their drama class? *sigh* I miss my daughter, though.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2273","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2273","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2273"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2273\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2273"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2273"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2273"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}