{"id":2102,"date":"2011-01-03T13:06:15","date_gmt":"2011-01-03T20:06:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/?p=2102"},"modified":"2011-01-03T13:06:15","modified_gmt":"2011-01-03T20:06:15","slug":"yes-its-as-good-as-i-had-hoped","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/?p=2102","title":{"rendered":"Yes, it’s as good as I had hoped."},"content":{"rendered":"
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\n2.365<\/a>, originally uploaded by Suddenly Single<\/a>.<\/span>\n<\/div>\n

\nI woke up on 1\/1\/11 and my arms felt like I had worked out for 17 straight hours.
\nMatt, Leslie, Kara, Jordan and I were playing Let’s Dance 2 all night. I’m pretty sure, Proud Mary was the one that did me in. <\/p>\n

After the house was empty I started on laundry, a prime rib roast and relaxing. I was successful with all three.
\nI also started the no smoking promise I had made.<\/p>\n

I went through every stage. Throwing away all the butts, dismantling my smoking spot and getting rid of my smokes.
\nBy 5pm I had dug through my car looking for one smoke left in a box, digging through the trash to see if there was a butt big enough to light and checking all my pockets for a pack that might have been left in there. I found one and I smoked it with enthusiasm of sex deprived addict. I waited for the guilt to kick in. Nope, it wasn’t there. I felt no guilt what so ever. Why was I quitting in the first place? I love this!<\/p>\n

As I climbed the stairs back to my room to brush the taste out of my mouth, my legs started hurting. It had been a few days since I had been the gym or done any kind of walking. Oh yeah, this is why I was quitting. Not because I made a vow with my sister or I wanted to be a good role model. I was doing it because I want to be able to push myself further than I thought I could go. This smoking thing is slowing me down. Damn it. I’m going to have to remember that the next time I am tossing the contents of my trunk on the garage floor because there MIGHT be a half a pack of stale smokes in there. <\/p>\n

This morning I woke up and remembered this is another day I won’t be smoking. Instead of smile, I sighed.
\nThe worst part of this is the catch 22. Today I go back to the gym and I push myself again, possibly farther than I could in the past…but I won’t be able to reward myself with a smoke.
\nYes, I see the stupidity in all of this. Yes, I know how stupid I looked lighting up a smoke before I even had the car started to head home from the gym. <\/p>\n

I’m going to have to just knock myself out when I get home from the gym to forget the joy of those quiet moments in the garage smoking, playing Angry Birds or texting with a friend.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

2.365, originally uploaded by Suddenly Single. I woke up on 1\/1\/11 and my arms felt like I had worked out for 17 straight hours. Matt, Leslie, Kara, Jordan and I were playing Let’s Dance 2 all night. I’m pretty sure, Proud Mary was the one that did me in. After the house was empty I…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2102","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2102","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2102"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2102\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2102"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2102"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2102"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}