{"id":2089,"date":"2010-12-13T15:13:44","date_gmt":"2010-12-13T22:13:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/?p=2089"},"modified":"2010-12-13T15:13:44","modified_gmt":"2010-12-13T22:13:44","slug":"you-want-more-ill-make-it","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/?p=2089","title":{"rendered":"You want more? I’ll make it…."},"content":{"rendered":"
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\nI think it’s about forgiveness….<\/a>, originally uploaded by Suddenly Single<\/a>.<\/span>\n<\/div>\n

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\nOh how I wish I could say I was a Holiday type of person. I think since the Incredible Hulk skates mix up when I was child that I don’t have it in me anymore.
\nI got an invite to bail out on Christmas morning madness and I actually considered it. Hell, I am still considering it. <\/p>\n

My sister is the glue of our family and when I put my fingers in my ears and start saying, “lalalalalala-i can’t hear you-lalalalalala” there is a good chance that I am going to get in trouble. She hasn’t given me the “Yes, we are coming down for Christmas.” so I am looking for just about any reason to not celebrate. I got a tree earlier than I normally do because I could see this was not going to be a good year for me. It’s been sitting in my new living room without a single thing on it for a week. The only reason I put the lights on it the other day was because I felt bad for the tree.
\nEvery time I walked by he would say, “It wasn’t enough I was cut down, tied up and thrown in the back of a truck like a refugee on the run and then SOLD FOR TEN BUCKS, but you won’t even trim me up and decorate me? YOU SUCK WOMAN! SUCKITY SUCK SUCK!”<\/p>\n

You have lights now, shut the hell up you damn tree!<\/p>\n

\nI can’t even imagine the freedom to be able to say, “Hey, i’m going to do this, not feel guilty about it. “
\nIt’s a “Hold my beer and watch this…” famous last words moment. I would NEVER live it down.
\n“Remember that year you bailed on Christmas?”
\nOhhhh, but the thought of laughing all day and not worried about if I got enough, the food is good, is it enough…have I given ENOUGH???
\nEver feel like you give all you have and there is always someone that looks at you like you didn’t do enough? I do. Why do I even give a flying fuck? Because he is the other 50% of my children’s memories growing up and his words have impact on the way they look at me.<\/p>\n

I did actually call and tell him I was going to have the girls on Christmas Eve and he could have them Christmas morning.
\nI rendered him speechless. <\/p>\n

I wonder what would win out in my memories later in life? the guilt trip I got or the laughter I had that day?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I think it’s about forgiveness…., originally uploaded by Suddenly Single. Oh how I wish I could say I was a Holiday type of person. I think since the Incredible Hulk skates mix up when I was child that I don’t have it in me anymore. I got an invite to bail out on Christmas morning…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2089","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2089","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2089"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2089\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2089"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2089"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2089"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}