{"id":1771,"date":"2008-09-22T21:03:48","date_gmt":"2008-09-23T04:03:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/?p=1771"},"modified":"2008-09-22T21:03:48","modified_gmt":"2008-09-23T04:03:48","slug":"ive-lost-hope","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/?p=1771","title":{"rendered":"I&#8217;ve lost hope"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/farm4.static.flickr.com\/3169\/2881377338_eded57daf3.jpg\" width=\"500\" height=\"375\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Since the beginning of July I have been suffering from bladder infections.<br \/>\nThey believed the bladder infection had gone to my kidneys. They did a CT scan and didn&#8217;t find anything unusual.<br \/>\nI&#8217;ve been on 3 different meds to fix the problem, and none of them have worked. I&#8217;ve spent over 400 bucks in visits to specialists and medication and the only answer I get is, &#8216;here, try this doctor.&#8217; and none of them have worked.<br \/>\nThe mental drain from this is killing me. I feel like I am being pulled out into a sea of wrong answers.<\/p>\n<p>People keep saying, &#8220;Just keep going on&#8230;you&#8217;re strong.&#8221;\u00a0 I&#8217;m not strong.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m tired of trying to be strong. I&#8217;m tired of being strong and then losing it.\u00a0 I&#8217;m tired of my husband wanting to try to make it better, but he can&#8217;t.<\/p>\n<p>I thought THIS doctor would be able to keep digging until he found the problem, but he has pawned me off on an OBGYN.\u00a0 I&#8217;ve done this, I&#8217;ve seen these doctors. She&#8217;ll send me to a specialist, and he will send me to the next specialist and then back to the OBGYN.<\/p>\n<p>I am not strong enough to handle this. I&#8217;m tired of my kids seeing me do nothing but lay here in pain.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve lost hope. Yeah, me. Lost hope.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Since the beginning of July I have been suffering from bladder infections. They believed the bladder infection had gone to my kidneys. They did a CT scan and didn&#8217;t find anything unusual. I&#8217;ve been on 3 different meds to fix the problem, and none of them have worked. I&#8217;ve spent over 400 bucks in visits to specialists and medication and the only answer I get is, &#8216;here, try this doctor.&#8217; and none of them have worked. The mental drain from this is killing me. I feel like I am being pulled out into a sea of wrong answers. People keep saying, &#8220;Just keep going on&#8230;you&#8217;re strong.&#8221;\u00a0 I&#8217;m not strong. I&#8217;m tired of trying to be strong. I&#8217;m tired of being strong and then losing it.\u00a0 I&#8217;m tired of my husband wanting to try to make it better, but he can&#8217;t. I thought THIS doctor would be able to keep digging until he found the problem, but he has pawned me off on an OBGYN.\u00a0 I&#8217;ve done this, I&#8217;ve seen these doctors. She&#8217;ll send me to a specialist, and he will send me to the next specialist and then back to the OBGYN. I am not strong enough to handle this. I&#8217;m tired of my kids seeing me do nothing but lay here in pain. I&#8217;ve lost hope. Yeah, me. Lost hope.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1771","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1771","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1771"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1771\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1771"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1771"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1771"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}