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I needed some healthy sleep to be able to decide what needs to be done.
\nI took a pill around 6pm last night, it never seems to work…just makes me dizzy or loopy, but it worked last night.<\/p>\n
At 6 am I woke up.<\/p>\n
I physically feel better, but the mental part is slow coming.\u00a0 The last time I went to the doctor and told him what was going on, he said; “Up the dosage.”\u00a0 I told him I didn’t want to, that I had been trying to go to a lower dosage.
\nOkay, maybe he was right.\u00a0 So I am.<\/p>\n
Thank you everyone for your support. I am taking steps. There is help out there for depression (which I am SO new to) and I am taking it.
\nThe depression is centered around not being able to handle the things around me. I feel like I am either going to laugh or cry.
\nI keep thinking, “If I can just get through THIS, I will be okay.” and then with THIS is handled, THAT jumps out of the corner.The grim reality is; “This and That” are tag teaming.\u00a0 At some point I need to tap out.<\/p>\n
Christmas is like, what? less then a week away?\u00a0 Every time I think about it…I have an anxiety attack and want to hurl.<\/p>\n
The commercials on TV…come on, BUY A NEW CAR.\u00a0\u00a0 How about being able to pay the car payment that I already have?<\/p>\n
*tugging on hair*\u00a0 As my mom always says, “This too shall pass…”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I needed some healthy sleep to be able to decide what needs to be done. I took a pill around 6pm last night, it never seems to work…just makes me dizzy or loopy, but it worked last night. At 6 am I woke up. I physically feel better, but the mental part is slow coming.\u00a0 The last time I went to the doctor and told him what was going on, he said; “Up the dosage.”\u00a0 I told him I didn’t want to, that I had been trying to go to a lower dosage. Okay, maybe he was right.\u00a0 So I am. Thank you everyone for your support. I am taking steps. There is help out there for depression (which I am SO new to) and I am taking it. The depression is centered around not being able to handle the things around me. I feel like I am either going to laugh or cry. I keep thinking, “If I can just get through THIS, I will be okay.” and then with THIS is handled, THAT jumps out of the corner.The grim reality is; “This and That” are tag teaming.\u00a0 At some point I need to tap out. Christmas is like, what? less then a week away?\u00a0 Every time I think about it…I have an anxiety attack and want to hurl. The commercials on TV…come on, BUY A NEW CAR.\u00a0\u00a0 How about being able to pay the car payment that I already have? *tugging on hair*\u00a0 As my mom always says, “This too shall pass…”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1562","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1562","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1562"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1562\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1562"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1562"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1562"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}