{"id":1194,"date":"2006-10-04T15:50:30","date_gmt":"2006-10-04T22:50:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/?p=1194"},"modified":"2006-10-04T15:50:30","modified_gmt":"2006-10-04T22:50:30","slug":"blogging-saint","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/?p=1194","title":{"rendered":"Blogging Saint?"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/static.flickr.com\/5\/8493417_827dd54bb1.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Dear Heavens NO, i&#8217;m no blogging saint.<\/p>\n<p>I share a lot of my anxiety issues, even though I have a couple posts sitting in my folder just waiting to be posted, but then after I read them I think, &#8220;What a bummer, It makes me sound like my life just sucks and it doesn&#8217;t really suck. The parts that suck is the part where I can&#8217;t control the &#8216;fight or flight&#8217; issues my body has&#8221;.<\/p>\n<p>The stuff I don&#8217;t blog about has to do with people in my life that I refuse to write about because of the drama  that would follow if I even hinted that I had any problems what so ever.  It&#8217;s just better for me to just stand back and let those people go about their lives and hopefully I don&#8217;t get caught in the crossfire.\u00a0 Who am I kidding? It doesn&#8217;t matter&#8230;i&#8217;m going to get nailed in the head with the crossfire and then somehow get blamed for it.<\/p>\n<p>Many of the reasons you don&#8217;t &#8216;let it all out&#8217; on your blog are all the same reasons I don&#8217;t.\u00a0 I can&#8217;t sit here and complain about Shaun. You know, like the fact that he doesn&#8217;t take out the trash in the bedroom and bathroom when it&#8217;s full. How sometimes he pisses me off and I want to bash him the back of the head with a large blunt object.\u00a0 He reads this. He will then respond with &#8216;big rolling eyes&#8217; and then complain about how I couldn&#8217;t get around the kitchen if I had a map.<br \/>\nThat&#8217;s not the problem though.\u00a0 It&#8217;s just the whole being a step mom thing and the frustrations that come with it.<br \/>\nWhenever you&#8217;re with someone that has been married that have kids, you&#8217;re now involved in a relationship with that person to.\u00a0 Sometimes the relationship is good. Sometimes it&#8217;s not so good.\u00a0 Sometimes you THINK it&#8217;s good and then you find out that you thought that person liked you and that&#8217;s not really the case at all.<\/p>\n<p>Now, Dan&#8230;my ex. How frustrating is THAT?\u00a0 I would kill me if I were Shaun.\u00a0 Dan and I get along so well.\u00a0 I can hang out with him and I can also tell him, &#8220;Why are you still sitting in my house? Go home!&#8221;\u00a0 He just laughs at me and knows I love him. Shaun and I don&#8217;t have to tip toe around Dan because he&#8217;s full active his kids lives and he knows that no matter how funny, nice, supportive and a role model he is to my brats, he&#8217;s not their dad.<br \/>\nI&#8217;m also a friggin&#8217; hypocrite.\u00a0 I love the relationship that I have with my ex, but i&#8217;m uncomfortable with the relationship that Shaun has with his.\u00a0\u00a0 See, even writing that is going to land my ass in so much hot water that I am going to have to deal with that for months.\u00a0 I like the relationship we all have together and I don&#8217;t want to give that up.<\/p>\n<p>Blogging Saint? I think not. Human? yes.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Dear Heavens NO, i&#8217;m no blogging saint. I share a lot of my anxiety issues, even though I have a couple posts sitting in my folder just waiting to be posted, but then after I read them I think, &#8220;What a bummer, It makes me sound like my life just sucks and it doesn&#8217;t really suck. The parts that suck is the part where I can&#8217;t control the &#8216;fight or flight&#8217; issues my body has&#8221;. The stuff I don&#8217;t blog about has to do with people in my life that I refuse to write about because of the drama that would follow if I even hinted that I had any problems what so ever. It&#8217;s just better for me to just stand back and let those people go about their lives and hopefully I don&#8217;t get caught in the crossfire.\u00a0 Who am I kidding? It doesn&#8217;t matter&#8230;i&#8217;m going to get nailed in the head with the crossfire and then somehow get blamed for it. Many of the reasons you don&#8217;t &#8216;let it all out&#8217; on your blog are all the same reasons I don&#8217;t.\u00a0 I can&#8217;t sit here and complain about Shaun. You know, like the fact that he doesn&#8217;t take out the trash in the bedroom and bathroom when it&#8217;s full. How sometimes he pisses me off and I want to bash him the back of the head with a large blunt object.\u00a0 He reads this. He will then respond with &#8216;big rolling eyes&#8217; and then complain about how I couldn&#8217;t get around the kitchen if I had a map. That&#8217;s not the problem though.\u00a0 It&#8217;s just the whole being a step mom thing and the frustrations that come with it. Whenever you&#8217;re with someone that has been married that have kids, you&#8217;re now involved in a relationship with that person to.\u00a0 Sometimes the relationship is good. Sometimes it&#8217;s not so good.\u00a0 Sometimes you THINK it&#8217;s good and then you find out that you thought that person liked you and that&#8217;s not really the case at all. Now, Dan&#8230;my ex. How frustrating is THAT?\u00a0 I would kill me if I were Shaun.\u00a0 Dan and I get along so well.\u00a0 I can hang out with him and I can also tell him, &#8220;Why are you still sitting in my house? Go home!&#8221;\u00a0 He just laughs at me and knows I love him. Shaun and I don&#8217;t have to tip toe around Dan because he&#8217;s full active his kids lives and he knows that no matter how funny, nice, supportive and a role model he is to my brats, he&#8217;s not their dad. I&#8217;m also a friggin&#8217; hypocrite.\u00a0 I love the relationship that I have with my ex, but i&#8217;m uncomfortable with the relationship that Shaun has with his.\u00a0\u00a0 See, even writing that is going to land my ass in so much hot water that I am going to have to deal with that for months.\u00a0 I like the relationship we all have together and I don&#8217;t want to give that up. Blogging Saint? I think not. Human? yes.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1194","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1194","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1194"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1194\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1194"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1194"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/randomandodd.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1194"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}