*inspired by Tracy Chapman – At This Point In My Life*<\/p>\n
Dear Kristine,<\/p>\n
At this point in my life
\nIve done so many things wrong I don\u2019t know if I can do right.
\nIf you put your trust in me, I hope I wont let you down.
\nIf you give me a chance I\u2019ll try.
\nYou see its been a hard road the road I\u2019m traveling on
\nAnd if I take your hand I might lead you down the path to ruin.
\nIve had a hard life I\u2019m just saying it so you\u2019ll understand
\nThat right now, right now, I\u2019m doing the best I can.<\/p>\n
At this point in my life
\nAlthough Ive mostly walked in the shadows
\nI\u2019m still searching for the light
\nWont you put your faith in me,
\nWe both know thats what matters
\nIf you give me a chance I\u2019ll try
\nYou see I\u2019ve been climbing stairs, but mostly stumbling down
\nI\u2019ve been reaching high, always losing ground.
\nYou see Ive conquered hills, but I still have mountains to climb.
\nAnd right now, I\u2019m doing the best I can.
\nAt this point in my life<\/p>\n
Before we take a step,
\nBefore we walk down that path,
\nBefore I make any promises,
\nBefore you have regrets,
\nBefore we talk commitment,
\nLet me tell you of my past,
\nAll Ive seen and all Ive done,
\nThe things Id like to forget,<\/p>\n
At this point in my life
\nId like to live as if only love mattered,
\nAs if redemption was in sight
\nAs if the search to live honestly
\nIs all that anyone needs
\nNo matter if you find it.<\/p>\n
You see when Ive touched the sky
\nThe earths gravity has pulled me down
\nBut now Ive reconciled that in this world
\nBirds and angels get the wings to fly.
\nIf you can believe in this heart of mine,
\nIf you can give it a try,
\nThen I\u2019ll reach inside and find and give you
\nAll the sweetness that I have.<\/p>\n
Love,
\nKristine<\/p>\n
Dear Kristine,
\nI\u2019ve read your words and I want to believe you because you have been so honest with me.
\nTruthfully, I\u2019ve had a hard time with trust lately.
\nYou say you\u2019re afraid you\u2019ll take me down the path to ruin if I take your hand, but if you would have looked over during your travels you would have seen that I\u2019ve sort of been on the same path you\u2019ve been on. I keep waiting for you to stop walking through fire to prove a point, but you not only walk over the coals into the flame, you stand there and let them eat at you. It\u2019s sad to watch.\u00a0 The only comfort I get out of it is knowing that eventually you see what you\u2019re doing and you get out before the damage is reversible. Sadly, I see that maybe they weren\u2019t healed wounds, but just faint scars that only I can see because I have been staring at them for so long.<\/p>\n
You talk about the shadows you have walked in, Kristine.\u00a0 There has never been anything that would cast a shadow on you. I am the one that has traveled in the shadows, waiting for you to realize that you\u2019re stronger than all the hills you continue to climb, avoiding the mountains.<\/p>\n
There is no need to talk of your past. If anyone knows about your strengths and weaknesses, it\u2019s me. I\u2019ve spent years with this little girl you use to be. Her beautiful hair dragging along the dirt as she\u00a0 hung her head from the swing in the front yard letting the wind freeze her to the bone, refusing to wear a jacket because she wouldn\u2019t be able to feel the sting of the air on her skin if she did.
\nYour teenage years were fun to watch as you experimented on how far you could push yourself and everyone around you. You learned your limitations quickly, but it never stopped you from pushing that line as you got older.
\nI remember the days when you would put your hand out the window and let the air glide your hand over the trees, over the hills, back down to earth again. I remember the laughter on your lips. The look you would get on your face when you were stumped by one of life\u2019s questions or the smug look when you had insight to what was going through someone\u2019s mind.
\nI was there when you were at that crossroad in your life when you had to make a choice.
\nYou always struggled with the \u2018what if\u2019s\u2019 in life. It never slowed you down as a wife, mother or a friend though.
\nI was sorry when your life came tumbling over itself. I was there though and I know you remember me. I was the one talking to you when you forgot how to breath.\u00a0 There were days when you were just on auto-pilot. I knew you could always hear me though. You fought to get to where I was and sometimes I thought you would forget I was there because you would get so caught up in figuring it all out.
\nOnce you settled into not knowing what path to take and just letting me lead the way, you seemed to do pretty good. Don\u2019t get me wrong\u2026you were still a major pain in the ass because you were so stubborn about everything.\u00a0\u00a0 Sometimes I would just let you think you were in charge then, but I knew I was doing a good job and you were happy.<\/p>\n
You mentioned that you would like to live as if only love mattered. Kristine, you\u2019ve always lived your life like that. Since March, 23rd of 1993, your life has been nothing but love. From the moment you saw your fist daughter you lived life as if nothing in the world mattered more than making life full of love for her. Again on January 7th, 1997 you fell in love again. Remember how your heart nearly exploded with love when you looked at your second daughter?\u00a0 And if that wasn\u2019t enough you were allowed to have love lead your way on May 15th of the next year.
\nHave you forgotten so quickly what your purpose in life was the moment you looked at them?\u00a0 I didn\u2019t think so. You\u2019re smarter than that.
\nYou don\u2019t need redemption, you just need to remember again and again, every single day that love you felt when you thought there was no more room in your heart for love, but found more with each passing day.
\nNow, here is my promise to you;
\nIf you take my hand and let me lead the way, forgetting all this other petty bullshit that you seem to think is so damned important, I will remind you every single day that you are good, beautiful & worthy. These are all the things that you are think are untrue. You think you\u2019re not good, not beautiful, not worthy. I\u2019m here to tell you that you are and if you PROMISE me that you\u2019ll listen to me when I remind you every day that you are that I will find you those wings so you can fly.<\/p>\n
I believe in that heart of yours
\nAnd will give you a chance.<\/p>\n
You deserve that chance\u2026at this point in your life.<\/p>\n
Love,
\nKristine<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
*inspired by Tracy Chapman – At This Point In My Life* Dear Kristine, At this point in my life Ive done so many things wrong I don\u2019t know if I can do right. If you put your trust in me, I hope I wont let you down. If you give me a chance I\u2019ll try. You see its been a hard road the road I\u2019m traveling on And if I take your hand I might lead you down the path to ruin. Ive had a hard life I\u2019m just saying it so you\u2019ll understand That right now, right now, I\u2019m doing the best I can. At this point in my life Although Ive mostly walked in the shadows I\u2019m still searching for the light Wont you put your faith in me, We both know thats what matters If you give me a chance I\u2019ll try You see I\u2019ve been climbing stairs, but mostly stumbling down I\u2019ve been reaching high, always losing ground. You see Ive conquered hills, but I still have mountains to climb. And right now, I\u2019m doing the best I can. At this point in my life Before we take a step, Before we walk down that path, Before I make any promises, Before you have regrets, Before we talk commitment, Let me tell you of my past, All Ive seen and all Ive done, The things Id like to forget, At this point in my life Id like to live as if only love mattered, As if redemption was in sight As if the search to live honestly Is all that anyone needs No matter if you find it. You see when Ive touched the sky The earths gravity has pulled me down But now Ive reconciled that in this world Birds and angels get the wings to fly. If you can believe in this heart of mine, If you can give it a try, Then I\u2019ll reach inside and find and give you All the sweetness that I have. Love, Kristine Dear Kristine, I\u2019ve read your words and I want to believe you because you have been so honest with me. Truthfully, I\u2019ve had a hard time with trust lately. You say you\u2019re afraid you\u2019ll take me down the path to ruin if I take your hand, but if you would have looked over during your travels you would have seen that I\u2019ve sort of been on the same path you\u2019ve been on. I keep waiting for you to stop walking through fire to prove a point, but you not only walk over the coals into the flame, you stand there and let them eat at you. It\u2019s sad to watch.\u00a0 The only comfort I get out of it is knowing that eventually you see what you\u2019re doing and you get out before the damage is reversible. Sadly, I see that maybe they weren\u2019t healed wounds, but just faint scars that only I can see because I have been staring at them for so long. You talk about the shadows you have walked in, Kristine.\u00a0 There has never been anything that would cast a shadow on you. I am the one that has traveled in the shadows, waiting for you to realize that you\u2019re stronger than all the hills you continue to climb, avoiding the mountains. There is no need to talk of your past. If anyone knows about your strengths and weaknesses, it\u2019s me. I\u2019ve spent years with this little girl you use to be. Her beautiful hair dragging along the dirt as she\u00a0 hung her head from the swing in the front yard letting the wind freeze her to the bone, refusing to wear a jacket because she wouldn\u2019t be able to feel the sting of the air on her skin if she did. Your teenage years were fun to watch as you experimented on how far you could push yourself and everyone around you. You learned your limitations quickly, but it never stopped you from pushing that line as you got older. I remember the days when you would put your hand out the window and let the air glide your hand over the trees, over the hills, back down to earth again. I remember the laughter on your lips. The look you would get on your face when you were stumped by one of life\u2019s questions or the smug look when you had insight to what was going through someone\u2019s mind. I was there when you were at that crossroad in your life when you had to make a choice. You always struggled with the \u2018what if\u2019s\u2019 in life. It never slowed you down as a wife, mother or a friend though. I was sorry when your life came tumbling over itself. I was there though and I know you remember me. I was the one talking to you when you forgot how to breath.\u00a0 There were days when you were just on auto-pilot. I knew you could always hear me though. You fought to get to where I was and sometimes I thought you would forget I was there because you would get so caught up in figuring it all out. Once you settled into not knowing what path to take and just letting me lead the way, you seemed to do pretty good. Don\u2019t get me wrong\u2026you were still a major pain in the ass because you were so stubborn about everything.\u00a0\u00a0 Sometimes I would just let you think you were in charge then, but I knew I was doing a good job and you were happy. You mentioned that you would like to live as if only love mattered. Kristine, you\u2019ve always lived your life like that. Since March, 23rd of 1993, your life has been nothing but love. From the moment you saw your fist daughter you lived life as if nothing in the world mattered more than making life full of love for her. Again on January 7th, 1997 you fell in love again. Remember how your heart nearly exploded with love when you looked at your second daughter?\u00a0 And if that wasn\u2019t enough you were allowed to have love lead your way on May 15th of the next year. Have you forgotten so quickly what your purpose in life was the moment you looked at them?\u00a0 I didn\u2019t think so. You\u2019re smarter than that. You don\u2019t need redemption, you just need to remember again and again, every single day that love you felt when you thought there was no more room in your heart for love, but found more with each passing day. Now, here is my promise to you; If you take my hand and let me lead the way, forgetting all this other petty bullshit that you seem to think is so damned important, I will remind you every single day that you are good, beautiful & worthy. These are all the things that you are think are untrue. You think you\u2019re not good, not beautiful, not worthy. I\u2019m here to tell you that you are and if you PROMISE me that you\u2019ll listen to me when I remind you every day that you are that I will find you those wings so you can fly. I believe in that heart of yours And will give you a chance. You deserve that chance\u2026at this point in your life. 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