I will be out of town for the last two Mindful classes, this makes me sad because I have come so far and I wanted to finish it off with the group I started with, but decided that I am going to take the class again. There is just so much more to learn.
There are some classes in San Francisco that I want to attend. I can tell that they are working, it’s just one of the hardest things I have had to do. Skydiving is easier than successfully meditating.
This Saturday I spent a quiet day at home. The smoke was too thick to go hiking and I really enjoyed my quiet apartment. At the end of the day a friend asked how I was doing and I evaluated my state of mind. I said I usually enjoy my alone time, but by the end of the day of solitude I actually felt ‘alone’ and ‘lonely’. I was longing for human contact and I rejoiced in that emotion because that is one of those things I have been working on. Being on medication for anxiety makes me want to climb under a rock and growl at anyone that comes near me. I decided that Sunday I would spend some time with the brats and get some stuff done. Being mindful that I NEEDED that contact with people.
Today is Monday and short week for me. I will soon get to spend some quality time with my family. That’s my favorite medicine.