Random and Odd

24 Hours of Sleep..Give or Take 12 hours

I needed some healthy sleep to be able to decide what needs to be done.
I took a pill around 6pm last night, it never seems to work…just makes me dizzy or loopy, but it worked last night.

At 6 am I woke up.

I physically feel better, but the mental part is slow coming.  The last time I went to the doctor and told him what was going on, he said; “Up the dosage.”  I told him I didn’t want to, that I had been trying to go to a lower dosage.
Okay, maybe he was right.  So I am.

Thank you everyone for your support. I am taking steps. There is help out there for depression (which I am SO new to) and I am taking it.
The depression is centered around not being able to handle the things around me. I feel like I am either going to laugh or cry.
I keep thinking, “If I can just get through THIS, I will be okay.” and then with THIS is handled, THAT jumps out of the corner.The grim reality is; “This and That” are tag teaming.  At some point I need to tap out.

Christmas is like, what? less then a week away?  Every time I think about it…I have an anxiety attack and want to hurl.

The commercials on TV…come on, BUY A NEW CAR.   How about being able to pay the car payment that I already have?

*tugging on hair*  As my mom always says, “This too shall pass…”

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