• Random and Odd

    Christmas 2015

      This is the first Christmas in ever that I have woken up alone.  It’s probably a good thing that the last few months I have been doing just that to prepare me for today.  I was awaken by a text message coming in (Christmas and New year seem to be the holiday I get texts from family and friends I never hear from) and my first thought was, “This is Christmas morning…” and I felt sad that i’m alone.   After my coffee was made and I crawled back into bed, I decided to analyze my feelings and see where that sadness was coming from.   Was I truly…

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    The State of Self…

      My doctor thinks I’m okay.  He said, “I’ll see you in class.” Without medication in me, he doesn’t need to make appointments.   It was kind of sad, but I am excited about being back in class and able to get more focused.   I did ask him about my old friend and he just smiled and said, “What would it hurt?” Ohhhh, nothing except my brain, heart and mess up my whole freakin’ zen thing I got going over here. I was listening to a bunch of old songs on Friday night (yes, that is what I do as a single person. I sit in my apartment and…

  • Random and Odd

    Dreaming

    Every dream I have been having is about hiking.  The dream I just awoke from was about this beautiful canyon.   I was setting up our tent (which was HUGE and not the 1 man tent I have) and I tell Dan and Tabitha that I need the poles to spike. Dan brings me over my trekking poles and they are chewed off at the end.  I asked what happened and he told me ‘big ants ate them.’  That means something, i’m just not sure what. I’m signed up for my snow shoe class.  As predicted, I got tired of waiting and signed up and I have a hockey friend…

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    Bittersweet

    I decided I was finished waiting to see who would join me on my adventures for 2016 and decided to just sign up for them and if people want to tag along, they can do it. I am done waiting. I signed up for my yearly Getty Owl run. I signed up for a 10k trail run and also a 10 mile trail run.  I want to use these races as a moving meditation session and get back what I put into them. I am registered for my 2016 Mindful Meditation classes.  It sucked missing the last couple of classes last year, but I would never take back that trip…

  • Random and Odd

     I spent Thanksgiving with my sister…every time we go up there we insist she makes us toast, because she is the best toast maker EVER. It’s getting closer to Christmas and I decided this is the year of the gift card. There is just no time to go out shopping and the girls are all about clothes now that they are grown.  They never like what I pick for them, so this year they can pick their own. Work is going good. Working on our goals for 2016.  My boss is on board with some of the changes we need to make and I promised him that when I get…

  • self

    SELF: preservation

      It’s been about 5 months that I have been exploring the single life.  I seem to be doing really well.  In the past month I have stood up for myself recently and because of it I have lost a friend.  It’s time to remove people from my life that are not beneficial to my well being. At my last appointment my doctor told me that I can’t avoid dating.  I understand why he said I shouldn’t completely avoid seeing people,  but I am doing fine by myself and I am learning so much.   Last night I was talking to my sister and I was explaining to her what…

  • Random and Odd

      I went to lunch with a friend from Jerusalem yesterday.  We met when we were both skydiving in 2009 and remained friends because we have so much in common.  When he moved, I didn’t think it would be for so long, but he loves the difference he is making over there and finally came home for a visit. While walking through the shops in old town I was pointing out all the weird stuff I love. He said, “Someday when you meet a nice guy and move in together…” and I cut him off right there.  “I’m not interested in meeting a nice guy. I had a nice guy…

  • Random and Odd

    Well, I bit the bullet and bought the D750.  My bank account is cringing, but I did it.  Now to upgrade all my lenses.  Who said photography was cheap never owned a camera. I have 2 sessions to finish editing and then I have photo shoots all the way up until Christmas. This time of year is busy.  It wasn’t suppose to be busy because the “Closed” sign has been up on my photography business for the last year.  Luckily for me, it’s been new friends, old friends and family that I have been able to capture this year. No strangers. Things have made a significant shift in my life.…

  • Random and Odd

    Code man is going to be a daddy.

      I went to Redding to do a photo shoot for my family and my camera decided it was going to have the mirror lock up every 3 photos.  I’ve had that camera for almost 8 years, it’s been to Nikon twice for repairs.  I am not complaining in any way, shape or form.  It’s time to retire her though. Whenever I decide to buy something I either go full research mode or just buy it on the spot and hope it works out.  I’ve been researching for about a year what kind of camera will replace my 300.  My first choice was the D810.  At least 15 trips into…

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    PTC 2016

      I finally got the hiking crew on the Pacific Crest Trail and they are  HOOKED. I have been slowly getting my gear together for my 40 mile in 4 day hike next year and I was hell bent on doing with or without them.  During the week I go to REI and get more one on one time with the people that have done this and I ask a million questions and get a million different answers.   So far I have my tent and my sleeping back. Both are ultra light. The backpack I have is far to heavy and I am going to get an Osprey light…