People say it all the time. Life can change in the blink of an eye. Deep down I knew that, but usually it’s a long blink for me. This time, it was a blink.
All excuses I had used to stay were taken away and I was forced to stop making excuses for myself…and for him.
It was a long time coming, this blink. We both knew it was long over, but for some reason we kept going as if something would happen that would make everything make sense. There is no making sense of it though. It was it was, until it wasn’t anymore.
I decided to get through this as gracefully as possible and with that I forgave instantly. I didn’t want that bitterness dragging me through a fire i didn’t need to go through.
I surrounded myself with the most amazing people and I told every single one of them that they need to surround him with love and support as well. I hope only the best for him, his loved ones and our friends.
I only have love for him, no hate, no bitterness, no anger. Only love.
Doesn’t mean that I forget, and trust me…out of all the shit-crap things that have I seen, that one is the worse and I WISH I could forget. When the images pop into my head I imagine this beautiful new path with a rock tower showing me that I am going the right direction. I am too. I’m on a new adventure and the best part of those is the unknown.
I’m not afraid. I’m more hopeful today that I have been in as many years as I can remember.
Forgiveness feels AMAZING.
I know that things happen for a reason and I am the first to get pissed that they do.
I don’t know what tomorrow brings, but I swear to God that all the shit that has happened to me in the past better fucking be for a reason and a damn good one too.